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I'd prefer that myself, just so there wouldn't be any comparison between me and the other guys. Definitely not a deal breaker, as I know there's basically no chance of that at my age, but it would be nice. I'm not planning ever asking about a girl's past if she's interested in me though(as if that would happen).
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Mackorov posted...

KogaSteelfang posted...

My mother tried to be good, but my father was very abusive to her and to me(not to my brother though). She'd often end up hurting me herself so he wouldn't, as a way to "protect" us both from him. Tons of emotional and mental abuse, with a healthy dose of physical tossed in too. Was taught that I'm worthless scum from early childhood, that I don't deserve to live, and that I'll never be good enough for anyone to love or care about me.

...so far he's been right, and I hate myself for it.

bro, that's not how it works. You've been raised on that mentality but it's your choice on conforming to it...

That just proves it further. My life sucks and I'm too pathetic to make the changes I need. It's all my fault, and I'm living the life I deserve because of that. There's just a few things I want out of life, and I can't even seem to get close to any of it. It all feels pointless.
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No, I doubt I will in this entire lifetime.
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My mother tried to be good, but my father was very abusive to her and to me(not to my brother though). She'd often end up hurting me herself so he wouldn't, as a way to "protect" us both from him. Tons of emotional and mental abuse, with a healthy dose of physical tossed in too. Was taught that I'm worthless scum from early childhood, that I don't deserve to live, and that I'll never be good enough for anyone to love or care about me.

...so far he's been right, and I hate myself for it.
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One problem I wouldn't mind having.
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3 that I know of. I tend to be oblivious, so there might be others I didn't realize. There was one guy at my old job who acted awkward around me, I didn't notice him acting that way with anyone else. I have no idea if he was gay, but he seemed to want to get to know me better but acted like it was embarrassing him to talk to me. That's probably the kind of vibe I give off too, so I was going to talk with him, but then he quit. *shrug*
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Ryetoast posted...

KogaSteelfang posted...

You must be doing something right, you had someone interested recently and would be dating them now if not for school.

A couple people actually...

But I bailed on one because I dont think Im in a place to be in a relationship.

See, you're doing fine. I see now it's not a serious topic though.
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You must be doing something right, you had someone interested recently and would be dating them now if not for school.
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Guide posted...

Lots of people really don't realize they're attractive. I still can't stand to look at myself in photos, but there have been enough experiences to tell me that it's just my perception being off.

No one has a good gauge on what they look like.

I think this is the case for some. My perception of myself seems to be skewed from abuse, depression, and never having any romantic relationships. I feel ugly, but lots of people say otherwise. It's hard to readjust how you see yourself versus how others do.
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Worked in a pillow/blanket factory for about a year.
Then a cashier at the local dollar store for about 7 months.
Then a cashier at a gas station for a year and a half.
Then at another gas station for 6 months or so.
Interstate rest area attendant for about 7-8 years.
Most recently front desk at 2 different hotels for 7 months.

Usually had fairly long periods of unemployment between each. Currently looking again. >_<
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I wouldn't know. v_v
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Only my immediate family would even notice, and of those 4 one would be overjoyed, 2 wouldn't care, and one would be sad. Overall, everyone would be better off I think. I'm sure lots of people would be relieved if it was eventually figured out. I would not be missed.
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I didn't care for it much. Had an interesting premise, but just didn't really pull me in, or have a pay off.
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A jacket, a pack of skittles, and some trail mix.
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I think the guardians of the galaxy have the most potential. Imagine Starlord trying to explain it to the others. In the end none of them understand what he was trying to say, but they all get gifts for each other anyway.
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I'm in bed browsing the internet. Mom is getting ready to go to my dad's and drop my cousin off at his grandma's on the way. I'll be here alone for a while until my brother stops by my dad's than I'll head over there.
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JimCarrysToe posted...

wwinterj25 posted...

Judgmenl posted...

EclairReturns posted...

I've never dated anyone, so no.

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It's ok, nothing special. My cousin downloaded it on my PlayStation. I got tired of it after a month or so, he's still obsessed with it though.
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Pretty sure I have. There was that guy that tried to do things with me in the public bathroom at work a few years ago. He kept on asking me all kinds of pervy questions they pulled it out and asked me to touch it...
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I want to experience it one day.
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No.
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Thanks guys!
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@_Lyonidias posted...

KogaSteelfang posted...

The-Apostle posted...

KogaSteelfang posted...

State, January 2016 when my dad was hospitalized with an aneurism and had to be flown to a heart specialized place in Tennessee.

Having an aneurism really sucks. I had to have one clipped in my brain 15 years ago. I hope your dad is well.

Yeah, somehow he's just fine. His was in his aorta, one of the biggest they'd dealt with. I think it 4 inches too big. According to the surgeons, only 2% of the people survive it when it ruptures. I figured I needed to be there in case he didn't make it, but nah. He went right back to his old self as soon as he was home.

Also, I'm glad you're ok too.

If I may ask, what part of TN?

Johnson City I think it was.
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I couldn't care less about c3po. I'd be bummed about r2d2, but not overly upset or anything.
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Dumb question. Can you set YouTube to record the streams, or do you have to record them yourself separately? I occasionally stream from my PlayStation to twitch, never tried it for YouTube. I wouldn't mind being able to get them on YouTube for later use, but currently have no way of recording them separately.
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No, but I did watch Sense8. >_>'
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Call it Passafist. Cause you're gonna pass a fist right through their face.
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The-Apostle posted...

KogaSteelfang posted...

State, January 2016 when my dad was hospitalized with an aneurism and had to be flown to a heart specialized place in Tennessee.

Having an aneurism really sucks. I had to have one clipped in my brain 15 years ago. I hope your dad is well.

Yeah, somehow he's just fine. His was in his aorta, one of the biggest they'd dealt with. I think it 4 inches too big. According to the surgeons, only 2% of the people survive it when it ruptures. I figured I needed to be there in case he didn't make it, but nah. He went right back to his old self as soon as he was home.

Also, I'm glad you're ok too.
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State, January 2016 when my dad was hospitalized with an aneurism and had to be flown to a heart specialized place in Tennessee.

City, if towns count, yesterday to go see Aquaman. The nearest theatre is like 35 minutes away. So I was like 2 towns over from where I live.
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Not great, not great at all.
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DarthWendy posted...

Yeeeeaah but NO, lol. Most people mentioned do not outclass you at all, not even close, (no offense intended to anyone), if we're going to be honest and not "bro-ing" around. And I haven't even spoke to you before nor even noticed your username.
What you get in this topic is 90% bros complimenting their clique bros in accordance mostly with their respective Discord safespaces, most are straight men rating other men's hottness. In other words, baseless assessments in terms of objectivity on the matter at hand (except for the gay chaps who will have a more relevant opinion).

So no, if we stop screwing around and disregard the bro patting in the back to level up their internet cocks, as a 110% straight woman I can objectively tell you that nobody whose looks I'm aware of and who has been "mentioned" outclasses you, you're 9.3/10 material and that's that, regardless of your commendable modesty. No guys on gamefaqs (that I'm aware of) exceed 7 or 7.5 at best. Until today.

Um, wow. Thanks! That's the most flattering thing anyone's ever said to me. I'm kind of stunned anyone thinks that. I don't really know what to say to that.
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rhkIce posted...

Dodged a bullet there, bro.
Youll have another opportunity. Not with her, though.
Hopefully.

That's what the general consensus was at the time. And no, I have no plans whatsoever to try anything with her. It's doubtful that there'll be anyone else ever willing to give me a shot, but I suppose I didn't think she would either.

DarthGravid posted...

That is far from your one and only shot. This girl is a tsunami of insanity that no one should should be anywhere near. What worries me is that despite numerous warning signs, you were so invested emotionally.

I just wanted to be wanted, not even just in a romantic sense. I want someone to care about me, and want to spend time with me. Despite the things she said, I thought we could be friends, and maybe eventually more. Idk, maybe I'm just desperate and finally having an opportunity messed with my judgement.

I've seen you around here, and you seem profoundly depressed, and have no self esteem. I also saw your picture in one of the selfie topics, and I can honestly say, and I can't believe that I'm admitting this publicly, your eyes are so beautiful, I'm a straight, married man, and if you looked at me with those eyes I would let you have anything. I know that's probably not what you are looking for, but you should have a little more confidence. Talk to a professional. The way you put yourself down is wrong and undeserved.

I am severely depressed, everything in my life feels hopeless. I feel so worthless to everyone. Sometimes I just want to talk, and the people here are the only people I have that I can talk to. But that turns out badly, everyone here is sick of me, or just hates me. My self esteem is always 0, and the few times it started to rise I'd do something stupid and turn everyone against me and it'd go right back down. I know I probably need to try therapy again, but I can't bring myself to do that. Plus right now I can't afford it.

Thanks for the compliment though. My eyes are the one thing I don't hate about myself. I like the color.
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Zero. Just like every year.
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*tries*
Nope, not working.
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Zodd3224 posted...

You're better looking than me buddy

Pft, no.
Edit: Thanks though.
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I've never dated anybody, but the closest I've come was with someone I wasn't attracted to. Her okcupid profile said she was looking for friends, and she lived close. Since I was looking for friends too and we shared a bunch of interests, we matched. She immediately shot me down saying she didn't want to date. That was fine by me, but we still talked.

Things got stalkery and weird on her end, and she said some cruel things like how she would never choose to be with me in any romantic sense and that she needs a man that could please her in bed and she didn't think I could(rip me...). She kept showing up unannounced at my work place and hanging out. I think I did actually have a shot with her despite what she said, but again I wasn't attracted to her and the things she said really hurt my self esteem(which already super poor to begin with). I asked on here if I should attempt to get with her, since at that time she was saying things indicating she would... It was overwhelmingly voted as a no by people here, and I didn't attempts t anything.

She eventually flipped her opinion entirely, upon learning I wanted kids she already had us married off, and planning our lives. All the while still flip flopping on whether she'd even give me a chance, and telling me about the other guys she was sleeping with at the time. I couldn't handle it and pushed her away, then once she hooked up with her ex I simply stopped talking with her. It sucks that she was essentially my one and only shot. >_<
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@DarthWendy posted...

Realistically (as in, not naming my own clique mates like most people in here), based on what I saw and know, so far it's obviously :
@KogaSteelfang (you should be a model, what are you doing on gamefaqs !!!), @Turtlebread , @deanshow

Thank you very much for saying so, but most people mentioned outclass me by far lol.
I do get the suggestion for being a model a surprising amount, like once every 2-3 years, which doesn't really make sense to me.

Also, I agree about the other guys you mentioned too.
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Kissed a girl when I was 12. It was a dare, so I'm not even sure that counts.
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Tonight, and every night.
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I just got home from seeing it myself. It was alright.

Zikten posted...

Zodd3224 posted...

Crimson_Angel posted...

How hard did Jason Mamoa make you?

Im still erect 12 hours later

your supposed to call a doctor if still erect 12 hours after Jason Mamoa

And all your friends to brag.
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vocedelmorte posted...

Before 20

I agree with this.
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Spiders, and heights. Heights aren't an uncontrollable fear, but spiders are.
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I've always lived with family, but I don't want to any more. I want to be on my own for a while.
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Congrats!
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In my opinion it's @EnragedSlith @clearaflagrantj @Carlbertomfg @DezDroppedFreak @Zodd3224 off the top of my head, theres a bunch of others too. CE is a place full of good looking people.

I'll toss my picture in too, just because. Both are a bit older, ones like 3 years old, the other is a bit over a year old. Don't feel like taking new ones.


Was toying around in face app and liked that one, so I saved it. There's no filter on it though.
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So did I, about 4 days ago. Started season 2 yesterday. Thought season one was pretty good, but the beginning parts of season two were annoying. It got good again once it started moving the plot forward more.
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Welcome to the world of Smashnautica. You've crash landed on an ocean planet and need to gather resources to survive. Uh-oh, looks like others have survived the crash and are heading for your resources. Duke it out with them and knock them straight into the ocean to become reaper food. Quickly gather the materials while its distracted or you'll become a snack too!
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