LogFAQs > #965246696

Excuse poor grammar in title, and probably post too.

Basically I feel like I was pretty self-centered in college. I still am, but I'm more aware of it. A lot of it stemmed from a period of time where I was extremely self-destructive following a break-up. I ruined a lot of my relationships at that point in time, as well as a lot of aspects of my life in general.

I've always felt pretty bad about this, but never did anything about it. I always felt like these people moved on and had better lives and that any reaching out would be primarily for me and not for them. So again, it would be pretty self-centered.

Lately though, I've been thinking about how many people might be happy about or at least unphased about my death. And its really bothered me. I reached out to an old friend that I have a semi-strained relationship with and didn't get any response.

Anyone have any ideas or thoughts. I'm guessing this is something with which I have to sit.