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Yes, I was having suicidal thoughts the other day but I didn't go through with it. It has taken me a lot of strength to finally admit that I need mental help. For years I have really, really hated myself and have wanted to just give up so many times. After getting into a huge fight with my ex this morning it made me realize that I've been depending on other people for my own happiness and well being for so long and that is not healthy for me at all. I have been codependent on her and other people for me to feel some sense of self worth and happiness and getting into a screaming contest with her has made me realize that I have to stop looking for fulfillment in other people. I have to be happy with myself and love myself to get any real sense of satisfaction and self worth. I'm starting my first therapy appointment on Monday to help me figure out just what is wrong with me and why I've been so self loathing and destructive for so long. I hit rock bottom with her today and I really need to fix myself and find joy in life from within, not other people.