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Topic	I fucking hate the internet sometime
Chewtarch 03/18/21 8:05:37 PM #38:	Alright, continuing from here: Chewtarch posted... How on earth can I reconcile this preference with lashing out at people on the internet for actively fulfilling that preference? Maybe this reminds me, that in the right context, I like when people act this way. If that's true, then my brain most definitely recognizes that. So on some level, I think it reminds me that I have sexual desires (see even though i've made great strides that kinda makes me uncomfortable to type). From there, I'd hazard that the leap my subconscious makes is lots of people open about this facet of sex (or attraction, even) this = a bombardment of reminders that sex exists and i like that it specifically exists in this form/preference/whatever brain then goes "oh so you like people like that? but you know sex is bad and shouldnt be talked about openly, right? have fun feeling guilty now" I think a big part of it also is where I get exposed to stuff like the image in the OP. Here, there are tons of threads where people pic dump porn-lite. I even go in some of them now (that took a lot of effort i'm sad to say, lol). So I expect to see stuff like that here. I don't expect to see reminders of sex, human attraction, or fetishes in general when I'm browsing reddit since I've blacklisted any porn/kink/sex sub that hits r/all. So some part of my visceral reaction is misplaced anger because my expectations and reality aren't aligning oh god i'm sure this all sounds like the ramblings of a lunatic but i promise this is helping me lol --- Aiways / Hairistotle <cite>Chewtarch posted [p:951862223] in I fucking ... [t:79356222]...</cite> <quote>Alright, continuing from here: Chewtarch posted... </cite> <quote>How on earth can I reconcile this preference with lashing out at people on the internet for actively fulfilling that preference?</quote>Maybe this reminds me, that in the right context, I like when people act this way. If that's true, then my brain most definitely recognizes that. So on some level, I think it reminds me that I have sexual desires (see even though i've made great strides that kinda makes me uncomfortable to type). From there, I'd hazard that the leap my subconscious makes is lots of people open about this facet of sex (or attraction, even)this = a bombardment of reminders that sex exists and i like that it specifically exists in this form/preference/whateverbrain then goes "oh so you like people like that? but you know sex is bad and shouldnt be talked about openly, right? have fun feeling guilty now" I think a big part of it also is where I get exposed to stuff like the image in the OP. Here, there are tons of threads where people pic dump porn-lite. I even go in some of them now (that took a lot of effort i'm sad to say, lol). So I expect to see stuff like that here. I don't expect to see reminders of sex, human attraction, or fetishes in general when I'm browsing reddit since I've blacklisted any porn/kink/sex sub that hits r/all. So some part of my visceral reaction is misplaced anger because my expectations and reality aren't aligning oh god i'm sure this all sounds like the ramblings of a lunatic but i promise this is helping me lol --- Aiways / Hairistotle</quote> ... Copied to Clipboard!
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