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Jen0125 posted...

Man, I sure hope this comment isn't about the discord group. If so, it's pretty off base and off putting.

its what my perception was from a couple of users

that may have been paranoid insecure male feelings, but they were feelings I felt numerous times from two individuals over a long period of time

if I find out Im wrong them Im happy to listen and maybe gain insight. But at the time it just hurt an old Queens feelings who didnt know she was this way and was just trying to be nice to people

its taken me some time in life to learn that theres a performative kindness that I was taught by an abuser, and theres nothing kind about it

i regret and Im sorry for people that Ive harmed with that, especially since Im not aware of some of the times I did that. I was too focused on myself and just being co-dependent and narcissistic.

a lot of people tell me now that they wish me well. And I always appreciate it. But Ive found that for some people that kinda means goodbye. Maybe not forever, but they have had enough outta you

All I can do right now is reflect and try to keep breaking patterns of unhealthful behavior in all types of relationships and friendships. Coming out is helping but I still have a lot of work to do to change into the person I feel that I am with a kind heart and soul, so Im eager to cast off this male facade, wish it well, and live a better life that doesnt pull anyone down.

to anyone that I think I was probably an inconsiderate dick towards, Im really sorry. And if I was an inconsiderate dick towards anybody and hurt their feelings and I dont recall doing it, well then Im double sorry and Im here if you ever wanna talk about it or anything else. Pretty good listener. This aint about that though.

I dont wanna tag people because thats just performative drama, but if I misunderstood things that is on me.