I just realized this, and it should have been obvious from the start.
I am a loser, because I say I am a loser. My faults are all my own. I am my own failure. And due to my internal inhibitions I have towards anybody else, society as well perceived me as one. The only way I can stop being a loser, is if I stop being a loser.
How am I going to do it? I don't know just yet. But I know that I am my own problem and my own worst enemy.
What I lack is confidence. But if I do lie to myself about my own confidence, I am also doomed to failure.
So, I am stuck. I am a loser, because I am a loser, and I have no idea how to gain confidence.
You also consistently and constantly ignore legit advice from users here for years on end. You rarely even acknowledge their advice, you always just acknowledge you have an issue and as soon as ideas and solutions pop up you don't say a word about it.
It doesn't help you always think everyone here is out to get you. Don't know why anyone would ever return to a place if they thought that or years on end but whatever.
For some odd reason there are STILL people after all these years who give you legit advice. Hell if I know why they waste their time.
And I don't think you have ONCE taken anyone's advice here. Not once. I cannot think of a single time.
And to further make things worse you treat women like dirt. I won't say more because the person I talked to asked me to keep this in confidence but I know what you've been doing this past week and you fucking need to knock shit like that the fuck off because it's well known you've done it beforehand.
You're right.
I'll stop.
I don't even know what I was even thinking beforehand. Or maybe not at all.