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Topic	does anyone else think about suicide everyday (srs)?
WalkingLobsters 10/12/17 9:12:27 PM #1:	Not that I will ever do it because the burden would be too great for my family to endure if I ever did such a thing. Ever since I quit my job, I've had way too much free time and way too much leftover money because I live at home with my parents. With this free-time I have way too much time to think. All I do is just cycle through my 4 forums (CE, misc, reddit, sherdog) and hit refresh every 30 seconds. And then I begin to think about the futility of life. I can have immediate gratification through food, entertainment, and sustenance at a moment's notice. Without the physiological stress of survival or emotional stress of adversity, I've created this sort of mental imbalance where my brain doesn't know how to properly function without stress occupying time. I'm lacking in avenues where I undergo huge periods of stress, rise to the occasion, and overcome for temporary gratification. And I don't know how to create avenues in life where I can replicate these scenarios. Previously in life it was usually school related. Do well in school to get into a good college. Do well in college to get a good job. I've done all that. The stress of succeeding in school is over with, but now there's no more stress, no more challenge, no more obstacles or goals to conquer or achieve. It's all just immediate gratification at this point in life. My life is like that episode of Twilight Zone, A Nice Place to Visit. A robber dies and ends up in a world where he can get anything he wants at a moment's notice. Anything his heart desires is there for him. He thought he was in heaven. He eventually becomes bored, restless, and miserable without challenge or adversity. He finally asks why he was sent to heaven, the presumed angel reveals himself as the devil and tells him he's in Hell. Right now I'm trying to get a new job and relocate across the country in hopes of spurring a passion for life through new challenges and adversity. What they will be? I have no idea. --- http://i.imgur.com/fsYJcFn.jpg http://i.imgur.com/SZie71I.jpg Starcraft 2 Username = Gears <cite>WalkingLobsters posted [p:888326905] in does anyon... [t:75873095]...</cite> <quote>Not that I will ever do it because the burden would be too great for my family to endure if I ever did such a thing. Ever since I quit my job, I've had way too much free time and way too much leftover money because I live at home with my parents. With this free-time I have way too much time to think. All I do is just cycle through my 4 forums (CE, misc, reddit, sherdog) and hit refresh every 30 seconds. And then I begin to think about the futility of life. I can have immediate gratification through food, entertainment, and sustenance at a moment's notice. Without the physiological stress of survival or emotional stress of adversity, I've created this sort of mental imbalance where my brain doesn't know how to properly function without stress occupying time. I'm lacking in avenues where I undergo huge periods of stress, rise to the occasion, and overcome for temporary gratification. And I don't know how to create avenues in life where I can replicate these scenarios. Previously in life it was usually school related. Do well in school to get into a good college. Do well in college to get a good job. I've done all that. The stress of succeeding in school is over with, but now there's no more stress, no more challenge, no more obstacles or goals to conquer or achieve. It's all just immediate gratification at this point in life. My life is like that episode of Twilight Zone, A Nice Place to Visit. A robber dies and ends up in a world where he can get anything he wants at a moment's notice. Anything his heart desires is there for him. He thought he was in heaven. He eventually becomes bored, restless, and miserable without challenge or adversity. He finally asks why he was sent to heaven, the presumed angel reveals himself as the devil and tells him he's in Hell. Right now I'm trying to get a new job and relocate across the country in hopes of spurring a passion for life through new challenges and adversity. What they will be? I have no idea. --- http://i.imgur.com/fsYJcFn.jpg http://i.imgur.com/SZie71I.jpg Starcraft 2 Username = Gears</quote> ... Copied to Clipboard!
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