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I'm going to speak about this more with our therapist (my wife's therapist has agreed to see us together as we go through this process) is just this guilt I feel about how my mind is already trying to plan out what to do after my wife passes away.

Not in the sense of like, funeral arrangements and things of that nature, but beyond that. I think about how I will basically be a 40 year old man alone and how when I'm ready to date again, that is just an entirely different world. Then I hate myself for even thinking about that sort of stuff because my wife has not passed away yet and maybe this process doesn't even happen how we think and it isn't an option for her right away.

My wife has said she hopes I can build a life with someone else after she passes and whatnot so it isn't like something she ALSO hasn't thought of? But I just feel tremendous guilt anytime my mind wanders into that line of thinking. Like I know I can't help that as I HAVE to be thinking about what happens after for my own mental health, but it just makes me feel like a fucking asshole. =/