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Listening to some sad music to let out some tears tonight.

https://youtu.be/KtlgYxa6BMU

It is just so unfair. I'm a logical person. We all die. Some of us get hit by a car and die when we are 10. Some get cancer. Some are struck by lightning. And at the end of all those things are dozens of other lives that continue on. It's kinda the whole fucking state of existence.

All that fucking logic means nothing when you're in the shit together.

My wife played Japanese crane games. I use past tense because they kinda suck now so she doesn't play them as much anymore. She won over 300 items. We have many of them displayed in our living room. It is a lovely collection and I adore them. I have weird thoughts now like, am I gonna adore them when my wife passes? Are they going to make me smile every time I see them and remember the pure joy in her face when she won? When they came here? Or are they going to remind me I won't get it again you know?

I hope the first... and I think that is truly what will happen. But it's a scary thought that the latter could be the case. And really how stupid is that thought anyways? Why am I concerned about anything like that?

Grief is a weird process, especially when you are grieving something that is yet to come.