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I got promoted to quarterback as a freshman. My school was terrible in Football. The fact that when the senior quarterback went down with an injury that they had to promote one of the whopping four shitty freshmen quarterbacks is saying a lot.

We didnt win a single game, but I was treated fairly well on campus. Or at least until wrestling season started. We were stupid good at wrestling, and the older kids were jealous assholes who hazed the fuck out of me.

I oddly enough went down with a legit injury my sophomore year that kept me out of Football Season. But I milked it so I had an excuse not to wrestle because wrestling season was just so hard, absolutely hell, and the older guys were like gods for paying their dues while you were rightfully treated like a peasant.

I was physically beat up. Constantly harassed. Dry humped. Humiliated. Forced to basically be the older guys slave.

Unfortunately for me, coach still made me attend and sit on the sidelines of every practice. Had I missed one Id have been off the team. They also knew I was milking the injury. So I was relentlessly bullied, and beat up but out of love. Tough love. Technically these guys would have my back during the school day if I ever needed it, I just never did.

Something changed in my head at that time. I felt shame, and I couldnt look myself in the mirror anymore knowing I was a pussy. I became an entirely different person.

I worked very hard in the off season to make up the wrestling season I lost out on. It included waking up at the crack of dawn to take public busses with sometime rides totaling 6+ hours to off season wrestling practices & tournaments.

My junior year, we had a transfer that was actually a good quarterback so I quit Football, and just concentrated on wrestling.

Ultimately I placed in state twice, and went on to become a two time all-American in college. Then did mma for a few years, and that opened up doors yo get into a career in tech. To this day Im the only person from my high school to all-American in any sport. My picture hangs in their trophy case, as a part of their athletics hall of fame.

My 20 year is coming up this summer. Cant wait. But yea, my transition came from getting relentlessly bullied, and choosing yo confront it, rather than run away from it.

Even if its been decades, if you still have PTSD then I recommend confronting that trauma anyway you can. Ignoring it and giving into fatalism is not the way my homies.