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haloiscoolisbak posted...

Alright, if you truly think you'd be happier alone that's valid. You know yourself better than I do ofc

I'd be happier to know someone looked at me and liked what they saw. To have someone flirt with me or hit on me. To want to hang out with me and go places together. To find someone who likes me enough to want to share them self with me. To be valued. To be wanted. To be loved. For someone to be with me physically, not because it's their job, not for money, but for me. The way I want to be someone.

Yes, I know almost everyone is struggling to find love. To find happiness. But they aren't all struggling to find a chance. They're not struggling to find a partner, if even just for the night.

You were 28 and it didn't work out, but you found someone. You found 2 others after as well. And I can't. I just want to have the same basic value that you have. To be equal. To have a chance. Those people saw you, they liked you, they valued you, they wanted to be with you.

I've never had any of that. It's an empty feeling, and I simply feel that paying for an empty meaningless experience would benefit me. I honestly think I'd end up even more ashamed of myself, and hating that it was my only option.