Current Events > I honestly think Im going to be an alcoholic *rant inc*

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My fiancee has stage 4 lupus so I spend most of my days taking care of her if she is flaring up when Im not working. She recently gained temporary custody of her cousins children (deadbeat opiod addicted "parents") and I know that one day I will be a father in law to these 2 beautiful twins, but juggling them, her, in addition to my mildly stressful job is taking a toll on me mentally. My drinking has gone haywire (8 beers a day average) and sometimea I literally feel like I cant function without a sip of something and I hate it so much because I know I need to be in the right state of mind incase somethin happens to her or those kids. I just dont know any other way to relieve stress that is more cost efficient than beer.

I know I shouldnt bitch given her slowly dying from a terminal illness is far worse than some stress but it pains me that all I can do is slowly watch her die and not be able to do anything about it.
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