Current Events > I threw up chili dogs on $20 last night

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I've been getting drunk the last 3 nights in a row out of a mix of depression and a makeshift insomnia fix. But last night the last thing I remember is saying "I'll just take one last shot" and next thing I know I woke up on the floor, shits moved around my room, and I threw up chili dogs on $20 which I must've gotten out of my wallet for some reason. I only know it was chili dogs because I left my kitchen dirty with all of it, I didn't even put it in the sink. Then I found the bottle in another room and it was significantly less than where it was for my "one last shot" so I drank like 2/3 of the bottle.
Apparently I called my gf to talk, and she said I was drinking on the phone, that I was saying "I can't even taste it anymore" and shit like that, which is notable because I fucking hate the taste of alcohol.
I haven't been able to find my glasses, no clue what I did with them.
I've been waking up off and on but it took until like 2pm for me to fully wake up and I'm still kinda drunk.

Don't know why I'm making this topic, /BlogFAQs I guess.
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Drinking for depression is always a bad idea, man. Particularly when you're dealing with insomnia at the same time.
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Vulgorn posted...

Drinking for depression is always a bad idea, man.

Oh I know. I've actually intentionally tried to make sure to never do that, but I don't have insurance, can't see anyone, get meds, etc. Just feeling at the end of my road so I've been drinking just enough to get drunk and that's it, but I straight up blacked out last night. I have no idea what all I did. I've never even thrown up from drinking before even when I've been shit faced.

Edit: and for the rest of your edit, I've been going several days at a time with no sleep or an hour or two at most. Melatonin isn't working anymore, again I can't see anyone, so I'm basically left with no options.
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We all have our moments of weakness I guess.
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Vulgorn posted...

We all have our moments of weakness I guess.

That's most of my life >_>
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Pics?
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Slip-N-Slide posted...

Pics?

Of the vomit? I actually took one to send to my gf lol, but idk if vomit is moddable.
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Gamer99z posted...

That's most of my life >_>

Ouch.
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sorry dude.
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Vulgorn posted...

Gamer99z posted...

That's most of my life >_>

Ouch.

Yeah my life has sucked for as long as I can remember. My first memory is being in the hospital on my deathbed with renal failure, my second memory is being forcibly pulled away from my mother and taken by my dad, then I dealt with a bunch of mental, emotional, physical, and sexual abuse there and I moved out on my own at 14.

My life has been ass for as long as I can remember.
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Damn, that sucks and hopefully the day will pull a 180 and make it little better for you.

Hang in there gamerz, and if I can do something to help let me know.
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MACisBack posted...

Damn, that sucks and hopefully the day will pull a 180 and make it little better for you.

Hang in there gamerz, and if I can do something to help let me know.

Yeah, hopefully. I doubt it but I'm trying to stay positive.

And thanks for the offer. Not sure there's anything that can be done right now though unfortunately.
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