Poll of the Day > How do I deal with the fact that I am a complete failure?

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EclairReturns
10/28/18 10:28:44 PM
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Today, I was driving, and cut into a lane I thought was for heading straight through an intersection. So I drove straight through the intersection while in that lane, but I later found out that it was for turning left. Then I started thinking about how bad I am on the road, and started regretting scheduling a driving test for mid-December, since I'm clearly not ready yet, what with my tendency to not pay attention while on the road. Last Wednesday, I took a midterm for one of my classes and can be sure that I got a mediocre grade on it. It's just daunting, and ruined my mood for the rest of the week. I've been spending the last four days worrying and stressing myself over the results of that test, to the point that I've been unable to sleep or concentrate properly enough to focus on my studying. I mean, recently, the amount of studying I have had to do has been a bit overwhelming. There's just too much to study independently, and I don't even have the energy or desire to do it. I'm just so bloody tired all the time. I'm getting sick of school, and every day I spend there just chips away at my sanity. I don't even have that many classes, and I don't even work that many hours compared to other people in my class. I'm only doing three classes and fifteen hours a week. Someone I know is doing like one and a half times that, plus one more class than I have. So I cannot even fathom why people bother calling me intelligent. I'm not intelligent; I just have more time to study than most other people going to college, hence why I perform slightly higher than the average bloke in my class. I'm not smart; it's just that other people have less time to study than I do. So I cannot understand why people keep thinking this. I mean, I know that there are other people who perform better than me and work more often and study for many more classes than I do. I'm really not anything special. Additionally, some of them even work at jobs that future employers will actually find interesting after they graduate. Two people I know work in a data science center at my school, one person does undergraduate research and tutors lower-level math classes, while I just work at my measly job doing mindless clerical work with Excel. It just makes me wonder what the hell I'm even doing with my life right now. I should be working more hours, but I do not. I just need more time to study than other blokes, in addition to not having the energy to do anything nowadays. Every hour of every day of my life is spent in utter and complete misery, to the point that taking an extra job on the weekends might actually help me not feel worthless and maybe less unhappy. I just spent much of my weekend trying to find things that make me happy, but fail in doing so, so there's really no goddamn point in sitting around the house all the day. There's no bloody happiness in my life whatsoever, which makes me wonder why the hell those blokes in that depression topic bother calling themselves depressed. If they're depressed, what the goddamn hell does that make me? They all have friends and significant others. They have productive lives. How one can interpret their condition as depression is really beyond my realm of understanding. What do I have? A home that's more like a prison, an unproductive life, little to no friends to make me feel happy, and the feeling of always being inferior to everyone around me. I have a huge inferiority complex, if it wasn't already clear. I live a life devoid of happiness, productiveness, and satisfaction. Although, it's not like I'm not responsible for most of these items... I can find myself work (which will help with the latter two items) on the weekends, but I'm just too lazy to go job-searching again. I can find friends if I actually make a fucking effort to try and not feel the urge to choke myself to death before engaging in any meaningful long-lasting conversation. I've no right to complain about my life but I'm that anyway, so sorry. Anyway, how was your Sunday?

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joemodda
10/28/18 10:31:36 PM
#2:


You could start by adding some spacing to your rants because nobody is going to read that
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EclairReturns
10/28/18 10:32:08 PM
#3:


joemodda posted...
nobody is going to read that


That's precisely the point. I just want to moan about my life without anyone actually listening.
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adjl
10/28/18 10:33:08 PM
#4:


Step 1: Make cookies
Step 2: Eat cookies
Step 3: Recognize that cookies are good
Step 4: Recognize that you succeeded at making cookies
Step 5: You're no longer a complete failure
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EclairReturns
10/28/18 10:34:29 PM
#5:


adjl posted...
Make cookies


I'm too much a failure to do even that.
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Chewster
10/28/18 10:35:05 PM
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Came into this topic wanting to know if you must have these answers but now I'm left unsure
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IronicFool
10/28/18 10:35:21 PM
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EclairReturns posted...
joemodda posted...
nobody is going to read that


That's precisely the point. I just want to moan about my life without anyone actually listening.

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EclairReturns
10/28/18 10:35:36 PM
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Chewster posted...
must have these answers


I didn't have the room to put that in there. I'll fix it straightaway, though.
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Blorfenburger
10/28/18 10:40:15 PM
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I was similarly screwed, but im getting better with things. Shit if I can you can
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joemodda
10/28/18 10:40:37 PM
#10:


That's too bad. I was hoping we could all have another circle-jerk pity party to wallow in our shared despair
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adjl
10/28/18 10:41:33 PM
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EclairReturns posted...
adjl posted...
Make cookies


I'm too much a failure to do even that.


Nah cookies are easy. Go make some cookies. Whining isn't going to make cookies happen.
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EclairReturns
10/28/18 10:46:27 PM
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joemodda posted...
too bad


I complain about this sort of crap every weekend. At this point, I'm not doing anything to fix it, so I haven't a right to have that sort of party.

adjl posted...
Whining isn't going to make cookies happen.


I'm too fat, anyway.
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Chewster
10/28/18 10:48:24 PM
#13:


Dude you aren't fat

Also the fact you aren't doing anything about it is exactly what makes it a pity party
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Sahuagin
10/28/18 10:49:16 PM
#14:


take a damn driving course
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GanglyKhan
10/28/18 10:50:03 PM
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Castlevania Season 2 is on Netflix.
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Sarcasthma
10/28/18 10:50:45 PM
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Who was it that kept defending Eclairs posting style?
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GanglyKhan
10/28/18 10:52:41 PM
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Sarcasthma posted...
Who was it that kept defending Eclairs posting style?

Me lmao

The mental focus it takes to read his posts is between making a peanut butter sandwich and blowing your nose.

It's unaesthetic af, but it isn't a pain to read.
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Zeus
10/28/18 10:56:04 PM
#18:


Fail less / Succeed more / Win whatever you're fighting for.

Also you're what, 20? It's too soon to know if you're a complete failure.

joemodda posted...
You could start by adding some spacing to your rants because nobody is going to read that


Pretty much. Even I have my limits.
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EclairReturns
10/28/18 10:56:25 PM
#19:


Chewster posted...
the fact you aren't doing anything about it is exactly what makes it a pity party


Oh. I still don't want helpful people who take time out of their lives (like Zeus or GanglyKhan) to help me, because I never follow their advice, so I'm leaving it as is. I mean, it's just an insult to them if I complain about the same old stuff every weekend, get advice that I don't follow, then proceed to complain about it the very next weekend. It's just easier on my conscience if I make it so that people don't want to help me.

Sarcasthma posted...
defending


The bloke above you.
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Mead
10/28/18 10:57:30 PM
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Speak to a professional therapist or counselor.
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SusanGreenEyes
10/28/18 10:57:59 PM
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Here's the thing, dude. It's one exam. Instead of stressing over the grade, use that energy to study so you can do better on your next exam.

Instead of stressing over your upcoming driving exam, reschedule it for a later date so you can get more practice. Hire a driving school to work with you on your driving, if necessary.
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Sarcasthma
10/28/18 10:58:17 PM
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GanglyKhan posted...
Sarcasthma posted...
Who was it that kept defending Eclairs posting style?

Me lmao

The mental focus it takes to read his posts is between making a peanut butter sandwich and blowing your nose.

It's unaesthetic af, but it isn't a pain to read.

It certainly discourages people from reading it, though.
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EclairReturns
10/28/18 11:15:59 PM
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Zeus posted...
20


Just replace that zero with some kind of four.

SusanGreenEyes posted...
next exam


It's one and a half months away. I suppose that since I kind of have a good idea of what I went wrong on the midterm, I should be fine come final exam day.

SusanGreenEyes posted...
Hire a driving school to work with you on your driving, if necessary.


I'm broke and sometimes don't even have the energy to drive due to staying up the previous night thinking about the stuff I posted in this topic.
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adjl
10/29/18 12:24:48 AM
#24:


EclairReturns posted...
adjl posted...
Whining isn't going to make cookies happen.


I'm too fat, anyway.


So only eat one or two and share the rest. Even more success, because you'll make lots of people happy because everybody likes cookies.
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SauI_Goodman
10/29/18 12:37:23 AM
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I work a second job on the weekends. Don't do it. Seriously. And I still don't make as much as people with one job. Sometimes I feel like a failure too. But then I do <moddable offense> and drink a little bit and feel better about myself. Then hit the city and go out looking for an adventure. All in moderation, though. Plus I like hitting the gym. It makes me feel good to look good.
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wwinterj25
10/29/18 1:20:30 AM
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Holy wall of text Batman!
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Kyuubi4269
10/29/18 1:24:28 AM
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Hard to read posts are reportable btw
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wwinterj25
10/29/18 1:26:33 AM
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EclairReturns posted...
I'm too fat, anyway.


I think at this point with folk on GameFAQs who constantly put themselves down and never take any advice I'm just going to agree with them. Yep you're fat and a complete failure, ok?
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LinkPizza
10/29/18 1:46:08 AM
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SauI_Goodman posted...
I work a second job on the weekends. Don't do it. Seriously.

I wouldn't go that far. It's not that bad. But it might not be for you. I would at least try to see how it is first... I've worked two jobs many times in my life. I do currently, as well...
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wwinterj25
10/29/18 1:52:46 AM
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All work no play is the TC's problem it seems. Strange enough though I have the exact opposite problem.
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TheWorstPoster
10/29/18 2:04:02 AM
#31:


You are not me.

You are not a failure.
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DeltaBladeX
10/29/18 3:51:12 AM
#32:


The same way I do, waste money on others
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GanglyKhan
10/29/18 6:12:08 AM
#33:


Sarcasthma posted...
It certainly discourages people from reading it, though.

Also true.

adjl posted...
So only eat one or two and share the rest. Even more success, because you'll make lots of people happy because everybody likes cookies

That's a pretty good idea there.

And TC, @MrMelodramatic used to do this same kind of thing where him and the board would go through a cycle of complaint > advice > denial of advice cause he'd fail anyway > results > complaint > advice > repeat and now the dude just recently went to some event that sounds lit af where he got to ride in a helicopter and eat a really nice meal and stuff.

People improve, situations get better. You just really need to listen to your therapist, man. These topics are deconstructing all the work you've been doing with them.
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dancer62
10/29/18 6:32:28 AM
#34:


Cheese with your whine?

And I'm sure you won't pay attention to this, but the things you tell yourself have power. If you whine, you make yourself depressed. If you tell yourself you are a failure, you will make yourself a failure.
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Fierce_Deity_08
10/30/18 4:21:51 PM
#35:


Embrace and enjoy it. Thats what I do.
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