Current Events > Drunk. Bored. Downed an energy drink. Gonna have a mental break anytime. AMA

(+) Yeah! (+)

Distract me please.
---

RoadsterUFO posted...

What kind of energy drink?

It was a dollar drink they sell at my work. Spider Energy Zero or something.
---

Why u mental breakdown?

Keith_Valentine posted...

Why u mental breakdown?

Everyone has problems first off, but I wanna vent mine.

My mom is dying of cancer. My dad is a developing meth addict. My family lives in a large shitty house that should be condemned as it is. We raise three of my druggie half-sister's kids, who systematically destroy everything, they broke my new iPad just yesterday. My parents are extremely financially irresponsible, and I have to constantly bail them out using my low wage job. I don't have a license at 22. All my friends are moving hours away to go to Uni, I was planning to go to Uni until they rejected my bid at financial aid due to lackluster grades and bad credit. I have 2,000 in credit card debit from helping my family pay bills. I feel isolated. I'm ***hot*** and have a ***great personality*** according to a lot of people I know but it's so hard for me to let new people into my enter circle. And I just have a problem of being too complacent in general. And I'm an agnostic in a dominantly Christian part of the US. And I live in the poorest, most depressed US state. I routinely cut myself and starve myself as some kind of weird couping mechanism.

That's a lot, I'm sorry.
---

WrestlinFan posted...

It was a dollar drink they sell at my work. Spider Energy Zero or something.

Sounds ghetto. Had a monster assault an hour ago

---

inloveanddeath0 posted...

WrestlinFan posted...

It was a dollar drink they sell at my work. Spider Energy Zero or something.

Sounds ghetto. Had a monster assault an hour ago

Yes, it's from a gehtto dollar store I work at.

What's a Monster Assault?
---

Holy shit. You see a therapist or got the insurance to? Cause you're definitely overdue if you haven't. Do you got any hang ups about seeing a therapist?
---

Sorry to hear about your mother. Id try to get out of that house asap though

---

a therapist would do a lot better for you than CE. a lot of us have full plates, and I just gave you advice that I have been putting off taking myself, lolololol

do you live in a state where cannabis is legal? it's done miracles for Mike Tyson, haha
---

WrestlinFan posted...

Keith_Valentine posted...

Why u mental breakdown?

Everyone has problems first off, but I wanna vent mine.

My mom is dying of cancer. My dad is a developing meth addict. My family lives in a large shitty house that should be condemned as it is. We raise three of my druggie half-sister's kids, who systematically destroy everything, they broke my new iPad just yesterday. My parents are extremely financially irresponsible, and I have to constantly bail them out using my low wage job. I don't have a license at 22. All my friends are moving hours away to go to Uni, I was planning to go to Uni until they rejected my bid at financial aid due to lackluster grades and bad credit. I have 2,000 in credit card debit from helping my family pay bills. I feel isolated. I'm ***hot*** and have a ***great personality*** according to a lot of people I know but it's so hard for me to let new people into my enter circle. And I just have a problem of being too complacent in general. And I'm an agnostic in a dominantly Christian part of the US. And I live in the poorest, most depressed US state. I routinely cut myself and starve myself as some kind of weird couping mechanism.

That's a lot, I'm sorry.

God damn that is a lot. But I don't doubt you. Cutting is never good, I never went there but I know people who have. And your feeling of isolation is probably warranted. As others have said, you need to get out. If your family turns their back on you, there is nothing wrong with turning your back on them.
It's not easy, it's shitty. But you have your own life to live. You saw a different light and want to folllow that. It doesn't mean you can't be a wackadoodle, but at least it's your brand and you aren't taking anyone down with you.
---

You need to get a better job and get the fuck out of there. Take your mom with you if you can.
---

Smashingpmkns posted...

You need to get a better job and get the fuck out of there. Take your mom with you if you can.

I'm quite positive that this is one of those, "no shit, easier when said" moments.
---

RickyTheBAWSE posted...

, and I just gave you advice that I have been putting off taking myself

I do this all the time. I think if the intension is good then it's cool. Says something about a person, when you'd like to see others succeed even where you haven't yet yourself.
---

Lost_All_Senses posted...

Holy shit. You see a therapist or got the insurance to? Cause you're definitely overdue if you haven't. Do you got any hang ups about seeing a therapist?

I do not. I think my father has insurance for it, but there's still a hefty down payment.

>hang ups
I live in Mississippi, mental care is really underdeveloped here.

Unsugarized_Foo posted...

Sorry to hear about your mother. Id try to get out of that house asap though

I absolutely need too. It's why I'm so depressed that all my friends are moving away and I'm not joining them. It could've been a real new start for me. Thanks for the kind thoughts about mama.

RickyTheBAWSE posted...

a therapist would do a lot better for you than CE. a lot of us have full plates, and I just gave you advice that I have been putting off taking myself, lolololol

do you live in a state where cannabis is legal? it's done miracles for Mike Tyson, haha

Sorry about your own mental situation my dude, vent if needed. Yeah, I saw that story too, it's hilarious. My county hasn't even legalized alcohol yet, weed is a lifetime away lmao. I don't like weed anyway. It's complicated to get, to smoke, and the effect makes me depressed more than anything usually. I prefer alcohol.
---

SiO4 posted...

WrestlinFan posted...

Keith_Valentine posted...

Why u mental breakdown?

Everyone has problems first off, but I wanna vent mine.

My mom is dying of cancer. My dad is a developing meth addict. My family lives in a large shitty house that should be condemned as it is. We raise three of my druggie half-sister's kids, who systematically destroy everything, they broke my new iPad just yesterday. My parents are extremely financially irresponsible, and I have to constantly bail them out using my low wage job. I don't have a license at 22. All my friends are moving hours away to go to Uni, I was planning to go to Uni until they rejected my bid at financial aid due to lackluster grades and bad credit. I have 2,000 in credit card debit from helping my family pay bills. I feel isolated. I'm ***hot*** and have a ***great personality*** according to a lot of people I know but it's so hard for me to let new people into my enter circle. And I just have a problem of being too complacent in general. And I'm an agnostic in a dominantly Christian part of the US. And I live in the poorest, most depressed US state. I routinely cut myself and starve myself as some kind of weird couping mechanism.

That's a lot, I'm sorry.

God damn that is a lot. But I don't doubt you. Cutting is never good, I never went there but I know people who have. And your feeling of isolation is probably warranted. As others have said, you need to get out. If your family turns their back on you, there is nothing wrong with turning your back on them.
It's not easy, it's shitty. But you have your own life to live. You saw a different light and want to folllow that. It doesn't mean you can't be a wackadoodle, but at least it's your brand and you aren't taking anyone down with you.

Right. I just gotta take it step by step. I need a license, then a car, then I can start searching for jobs. The only concern I have is that the only well paying jobs around here are factory work, and my already bad social life will end right there.
---

WrestlinFan posted...

I live in Mississippi, mental care is really underdeveloped here.

Good people are everywhere, you don't have to stick with the first person they give you, if you can speak up in those situations. But I take it that down payment is probably gonna get in your way
---

Watcha guys think of my shot glass? I wanted something that would help drive me to drink lmao.

Lost_All_Senses posted...

WrestlinFan posted...

I live in Mississippi, mental care is really underdeveloped here.

Good people are everywhere, you don't have to stick with the first person they give you, if you can speak up in those situations. But I take it that down payment is probably gonna get in your way

True, I should take a more active role. I guess it couldn't hurt anything. I'll see how much it costs exactly tomorrow but I remember it being about $120 bucks a week which is crippling.
---

WrestlinFan posted...

SiO4 posted...

WrestlinFan posted...

Keith_Valentine posted...

Why u mental breakdown?

Everyone has problems first off, but I wanna vent mine.

My mom is dying of cancer. My dad is a developing meth addict. My family lives in a large shitty house that should be condemned as it is. We raise three of my druggie half-sister's kids, who systematically destroy everything, they broke my new iPad just yesterday. My parents are extremely financially irresponsible, and I have to constantly bail them out using my low wage job. I don't have a license at 22. All my friends are moving hours away to go to Uni, I was planning to go to Uni until they rejected my bid at financial aid due to lackluster grades and bad credit. I have 2,000 in credit card debit from helping my family pay bills. I feel isolated. I'm ***hot*** and have a ***great personality*** according to a lot of people I know but it's so hard for me to let new people into my enter circle. And I just have a problem of being too complacent in general. And I'm an agnostic in a dominantly Christian part of the US. And I live in the poorest, most depressed US state. I routinely cut myself and starve myself as some kind of weird couping mechanism.

That's a lot, I'm sorry.

God damn that is a lot. But I don't doubt you. Cutting is never good, I never went there but I know people who have. And your feeling of isolation is probably warranted. As others have said, you need to get out. If your family turns their back on you, there is nothing wrong with turning your back on them.
It's not easy, it's shitty. But you have your own life to live. You saw a different light and want to folllow that. It doesn't mean you can't be a wackadoodle, but at least it's your brand and you aren't taking anyone down with you.

Right. I just gotta take it step by step. I need a license, then a car, then I can start searching for jobs. The only concern I have is that the only well paying jobs around here are factory work, and my already bad social life will end right there.

When I was younger, I looked at the people who already had a license, and thought to myself..well if these dip shits can get it, so can I. It turned out to be true.

It sounds like you are the middle of nowhere, getting a building block job is not a bad thing, as long as you can realize you don't want to be a 'lifer' But sometimes a paycheck is a paycheck.

Keep your eyes on the prize.

Sometimes you just got to keep your head down and get through it.

But don't let anything happen to your vinyl collection in the prosses. Joking/not joking.
But ya, life sucks sometimes. The sooner we all embrace that the better off we will all be.

It's better when we are all in it together. In the shit, as well as in the light.
---