Current Events > This truly seems like the beginning of the end.

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Without my grandmothers protection the world can poke and prode me to death it's just up to when when I've had enough and decide to end it all.

I'm trying to be strong. But When your in the barracks and your getting blown away by nuke after nuke and no one is coming to help you. It's all about breaking my spirit. Thats exactly what's going on now. It's all about my tolerance level. My grandmother was there but her voice isnt there anymore leading me onto the next battle the more the years pass the more her strength in me and voice fade. it's all about my tolerence level. my Brother tapped out fairly quickly it's gonna be ten years since he's been gone. He tapped with my grandmother there for him. I've already ruined my life. It's all downhill from here. I'm quickly starting to realize no one is my grandmother she is gone. People are just here to take advantage of me. Like talking to men thinking they are woman. They quickly sped up my destruction. I feel like being 39. What is their left for me? probably nothing meanwhile the world constantly shits on me. slowly but surely they are destroying everything my grandmother built in me.......I realize I have no friends in this world anymore. THe only real one I had are my grandmother and brother one is locked up the other is gone.

So unless I can hold out hope my bro gets releases. but I feel like I'm carrying the world on my back it's just me wanting to give up and fold. The church doesn't care....It's all about me all alone I have no girlfriend or wife to be there. My mother might as well just hope on my back too cause she is no friend.

The only person with any love for me true love is my brother and he's locked up.

I 'm just venting but life is not good for me right now and the deeper these west african men and woman get to me the more they destroy me the more the world chips at my grandmother kingdom she built. There starting to destroy the outer castle. I know once they make into my castle. ......it's all about pain tolerance. and with no grandmother egging me on.....and no brother.......it will be even harder.

Reggie. Stop.