Current Events > Started taking some anxiety medicine..

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I have been having anxiety issues for years and years. I don't know when it started but its plagued me for awhile. I only identified it when I was in my early twenties and I am thirty three now.

Recently a lot has been going on in my life and with our store understaffed, we continued struggling under this unimaginable amount of stress. We were practically a skeleton crew trying to take on a nonstop store full of customers. No one cared. Customer or management.

Then a friend of mine and I stopped talking and she ended up pulling away and I clung on further, driving a wedge between her and I. I ended up drinking to try and get rid of this feeling, even if just for a moment and it just made matters worse. I spent the last week unable to sleep and eat.

My boss, Saturday, told me to go and take care of my situation because I was so stiff and flinching at every loud noise and I was quiet, too quiet. I have anger issues and I'm sure that some of it is part of my anxiety, a panic that causes me to lash out. This has caused many issues I have and I'm pretty sure I'm out to just push everyone away.

So I went to urgentcare to get it taken care of and they gave me some medicine. I took my first Saturday night and Sunday morning was...okay. I slept alright but I took another last night and I woke up in the middle of the night, having dreams about my friend messaging me and I quickly wake up to see if it was real or just my dream but I would be able to go back to sleep(which is a major plus)

I woke up this morning and went to work and was a little grumpy with how graveyard shift left the place but I didn't hold it in. Someone asked if I was okay and I said "No, I'm mad," but I didn't yell, I just said it. I didn't let it sit and toil in me to ruin my day, it just...stopped. Then...all of a sudden I'm smiling and having a good day. I'm handling everything as they come and I feel peaceful. I don't have this pity party in my head about my close friend nor do I feel tired, I'm just working. On my way home, I didn't have any road rage or gripes..I was just calm. I'm calm.

I sat in my car for awhile and I cried because I was so happy. I made an appointment to get a primary physician to get the real help I need now that I know that its possible to feel at peace. If anyone out there has any anxiety issues that make them hate their lives and want to end it sometimes, please go get help. My only worry is that this could end. I used to hate the idea of taking a pill to feel better but I've changed my mind.

What medication did they give you? I've been seeking mental health treatment for my terrible anxiety for years and literally everything I've been prescribed has only made things worse.

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Damn this hits close. I'm 29 and never told anyone about my anxiety. I actually talked to the urgent care lady about it and she said she could prescribe me something. I said no I I'll just exercising more. I wish I would have said yes.

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CRON posted...

What medication did they give you? I've been seeking mental health treatment for my terrible anxiety for years and literally everything I've been prescribed has only made things worse.

its called Hydroxyzine. I can take 1 or 2 a night. Its for anxiety and insomnia. The first night didn't really help much but the second night, I feel a bit better. I want to make sure it really works before I get too excited so I'm going to probably say something tomorrow. I'm sorry its not helping you, I really wish it would. I know a lot would benefit from the help.

Maybe try CDB drops? I'm told that it helps too. I have that just in case my medicine doesn't pan out.

BobanMarjanovic posted...

Damn this hits close. I'm 29 and never told anyone about my anxiety. I actually talked to the urgent care lady about it and she said she could prescribe me something. I said no I I'll just exercising more. I wish I would have said yes.

you should have done it. Especially if you feel that its bothering you. I used to exercise a lot and was pretty fit but it didn't really help overall. I still had some anger issues that couldn't be resolved through fitness. Not saying exercising is bad, its great, but I think maybe you should take something too, especially if you aren't finding the results you want.

Huh, that was some interesting reading on all the different drug families.

I am glad it helps you out, though as I am sure you are aware it is primarily a sedative and anti-histamine.

Clonazepan is the only one I have tried years ago, the nerve medication I am on now though has similar anti-anxiety effects.

The appointment is a good idea.

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Alteres posted...

Huh, that was some interesting reading on all the different drug families.

I am glad it helps you out, though as I am sure you are aware it is primarily a sedative and anti-histamine.

Clonazepan is the only one I have tried years ago, the nerve medication I am on now though has similar anti-anxiety effects.

The appointment is a good idea.

I'm aware. But all this does is mean I'm happy to get myself involved. I want to manage it better than just "accept it' like I have been.