Current Events > Waiting to get into University is annoying

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First I need to get the required A Levels and once I get the required A Levels, then I can apply to University.
However it takes time to get the required A Level, which is annoying.

In the past I had to fight to improve my health, which that battle is over. However even thought I won that battle, it has delayed me a lot thanks to all my failures.

The worst was Sinus Infection, getting that at the worst times.

At the moment I work in a minimum wage job.

There are times my anger and rage can reach 10/10, when my memory gets the best of me.

Memory can sometimes be considered a curse.

I am happy that many members here makes a lot of money, they can move out and live.
Sadly I am not there yet.

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I don't want to hate anyone for being successful, they haven't done anything wrong.
However I end up hating myself a lot, when I see I am not doing that good in live and haven't reached my goal yet.

Everyone I know got degrees and living a successful live.

In case it helps. Everyone is angry. Just cause some people have pampered lives in comparison does not mean that they feel any less angry.

The trick is to let your anger motivate you to succeed.

So I can use my anger to motivate me to do better and succeed.

I don't know everyone I know doesn't seem to be living bad.

The problem is there are times I think I am wasting my time working. Don't get me wrong I like my job, but the pay isn't good. I work from 09:00 to 17:00, but sometimes I think I am wasting my time.

You're doing the right thing: earning money and keeping yourself busy while waiting for Uni. You just have to keep going.

Sounds like you might have an issue with intrusive thoughts. A therapist can help with that.

Hopefully, you'll love university. It's a huge opportunity to have fun and try new things as well as get yourself a better job.