Current Events > Remembering the fake missile alert in Hawaii a few years back

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It was a strange calmness that I had felt

I know why I was so accepting

I worried for my family for a minute but then realized well they will probably be gone too

No need to push forward if there's no one to push for

It felt.... freeing

My blood ran cold, like ice in my veins

And also I was at a tenants house fixing a problem and he was like "fuck it, stop man. Bud, I know you don't drink, but here's to the end man. Sit, drink with me"

I refused the drink and said thanks for the offer

He laughed

"Sticking to your guns til the end, eh? Alright, cool bro"

There was no way for him to know I despise alcohol, since it almost tore my family apart

Nothing against others, but I'll never drink it

We went everywhere on bicycles when I was just a child, and I thought that's just how things were

Until I realized later in life that I don't remember much of my childhood or my father until the 3rd grade

Until my boss pointed out things I do and it worried him

I barely make any noise when I walk around

I have a habit of turning the doorknob before I close a door so it's as quiet as can be

I have a hard time speaking up

Told me I tick all the boxes for Self Abandonment

Maybe thats why I accepted it so easy

It felt final

And I ready