Current Events > I told them...

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I was sick of hiding my crush on the man I adore so I told my cousin after he brought up gay and trans gender people in conversation. I worded it like I was straight by saying I've only crushed on one man and tons of women (I dont actually crush on women I just like the looks of women aesthetically and nothing more I've had like 5 women friends in my life but it never has developed into a crush or desire of love just as friends) He said basically "if you love someone you love someone I think it was you highly looking up to him though" not wrong I do look up to my crush but it's more than that
Then we chatted about other things. It was a feeling to admit to someone how i felt idk why tbh I'm not In denial I just never told anyone before that. OK blog over

The way I phrased this is contradictory lol
I think I haven't met the right woman I truly vibe with its not that I'm not attracted to women completely it's just the man I'm talking about I got on and understood super well whereas the women friends I didn't know as deeply and I thought one woman I forced a crush on knowing full well it was forced now was just cos our hobbies were too different and we had little in common besides the conversations we had