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lol rant over.

A coworker tried to get me in trouble today because I wanted to help him.
After a 30 minute argument (where I never once raised my voice but he was constantly trying to get under my skin) our boss' boss stepped in and basically said "quit this shit, it is understood at the highest levels of the organization that Judgmenl doesn't act like this. Stop arguing." The manager in particular NEVER speaks out when this happens.

I think I have my job as long as I want at this point. I alone have probably provided the company millions in revenue over the years. The guy was trying to start a fight with me knowing full well I was attending a meeting while on PTO, less than a day after I loved into an ew apartment after I had been staying in a Motel 6 for 3 days.

It ruined her. Her obsessiveness over micromanaging my life over the past year was absurd and now she has to live with how those changes affected the dynamic between us forever.

"We'll see" wrt work.
I took this week off; Had some good experiences finally living on my own and will see what happens. The living situation isn't too different from living in a Duplex as far as I can tell so far.

Also I don't know how large this space is but it's way too big and it's only like 1000 sqft.

Also I don't play video games anymore.

I live in a small 1BR apartment off of some nice lady's house now (It's actually zoned as a multi-family home).
This only took me like 15 years and OGs know what I'm talking about.

bachewychomp posted...

I know you, or maybe someone else reading this who feels similar, is probably just going to say "I'm an introvert" but, as it took me a while to realize, a lot of people (including myself) who say that actually are just looking for a convenient justification to not challenge themselves to leave the house.

I don't think introversion/extroversion is a good measure here. I actually do want to, and have tried to do some of these things over the past few months, but usually events happen at very inopportune times for my schedule, e.g. the local board game places do TCGs at something like 7pm-10pm on week nights which is time I usually allocate to decompressing after work. I've read all of the responses in this thread, just haven't been too motivated to reply until now as people have a pretty long standing tradition of just grossly misjudging who I am as a person. It's like all of the stuff wrt exercise. I am not wasting my time filling it with that when I can just waste my time working or staring blankly into space which is 90% of what I do in a day anyways.

KingInBlack posted...

That said, you didn't mention something extremely basic: you made no mention of any physical activity at all. Why are you not exercising? Have you tried? It gives you a natural high, relaxes you, improves your health... The benefits are countless.

Not something I have never, nor will ever do.

Posting this to vent. I already know what the replies will be. Suck is the nature of the internet.

Years keep on going by as I consume more and more media. This shit is just becoming so trite. It's not even that the media is good or bad, it just feels like a massive waste of my time because I can't find anything meaningful to fill that time with.

For one, every moment of my day has Youtube injected into my brain. The content is barely stimulating, and I care about none of it. It's just there to fill the void. I can't think of any content creator I would really care about losing. That is how little impact they all make on me.

Reddit is more or less the same. I have been on the platform for 15(?) years now. I can't say that anything meaningful has arose from it for me. Once again it's it's incredibly surface level discussion about crap that I really don't care about, and incessant whining about the same surface level stuff. I'm not one to judge (this thread is doing the same exact thing) but I keep on asking myself "how can I actually find joy in this?"

GameFAQs is Reddit, but somehow worse.

I just finished watching The Pitt. Amazing hospital drama. I had to really push myself to finish the last couple of episodes. I just wanted it to end, Did I mention it was amazing? It would be great to see a second season, but would I even find joy in that? How can I admit that something is amazing but not want more of it or find it enjoyable as a whole?

And don't get me started on video games. I spent around $200 on them back over the holidays and I think I've completed 2 of the games I bought. Zero motivation to play them. Sat down and played like 25 minutes of Rogue Trader today. You see, I really like the premise, but I really don't want to play it. That applies with every game I have, including STO in which I've largely stopped playing in favor of just running the bot.

But when ask myself what I want, I come to more or less the same answers every damn time.

• I am always hungry despite just eating. It's like my basic needs are not being met. This is always on the top of my mind.
• The hunger could just be a result of boredom due to not finding a non-work-related activity to capture my attention.
• I can't stop thinking about how to "improve my workflow" with respect to work.
• I can't stop thinking about work.
• I do not want to code in my free time (the only thing I am somewhat good at) as I mentally translate that to work, and work is stressful. Coding is not an activity I can unwind with.
• I can't unwind. Nothing I do relaxes me. Even writing this up now and all I'm thinking about are the replies that like this thread will go into the void. The replies will be nothing but "go see a therapist" or some iteration of "clean the shit off your walls" despite the latter not being relevant for years now.
• The people in my life appear to have the same problem or they think I am a whiny little bitch, who does nothing but sit in front of a computer all day and doesn't do "real work", so it's nonproductive to try explaining this to them.

Instead of writing this up in front of my PC, I took the laptop and went on my porch.

I don't like video games all that much anymore, why would I even consider watching something that I have even less interest in. There's nothing appealing about watching people play video games competitively.

Huh? Always meant Found on road dead in my family.

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Damn_Underscore posted...

It seems like the average video is at least 30 minutes now. It's like watching a TV show

And the quality is nowhere near a TV show.
Wake me up when we get Youtube content on par with something like The Pitt. Until then I get to settle with uninteresting background noise AKA slop.
https://gamefaqs.gamespot.com/a/forum/3/3c6a79f0.jpg

Apple Fritters are my favorite.

I wear headphones everywhere and I do not have a mental illness, and I'm not in the mentioned generational cohorts. I am at my computer like 12 hours a day, I am constantly listening to something. Sorry that this offends you.

4 day weekend and video games are nowhere on my list of priorities. I might play something, but only out of boredom.

No. I've never really considered myself a gamer, even when I was a kid. Video games were a way to fill the void and a means of socialization, but not something I was ever really passionate about.

When reading this thread title my inner monologue said "yes".

I haven't owned a television in nearly 20 years.

No, I don't even use MB as MiB is the superior byte format.

ConfusedTorchic posted...

chewy

you also have been collecting data on users here

we all have, just solely by interacting with each other and learning about each other

No like literal spreadsheets. of PII. Of minors.
You were here when this story broke.
It is why he left.

The same Duckbear who collected user's identifying information like ages and locations including the information of minors which would be illegal and would be classify him as a child predator?

bachewychomp posted...

I think it's just ex-CE posters. I used to lurk/occasionally post there and NPC-style posting and repeating the same two or three jokes/gimmicks seemed to be fairly common

Makes sense, totally forgot about the CE-closure thing.

Few users I've never seen before talking to each other and they don't make much sense.

I couldn't say this with a straight face.
Sometimes we do things that are just fucking bad and we regret them but that isn't an excuse.
However, learn some common courtesy, take ownership, and learn to coexist.

I like how OP is so rude they can't come back and just answer the question.

NephalimTechno posted...

I dont know how else to say this

but you probably dont matter all that much to your coworkers

that is just how it is usually everyone has their own internal struggles and most people dont share about it

This. Even I don't really care about my coworkers and know they don't care about me. We just come together to make a product that barely functions so we can keep our jobs.

Do you know that she left because of you or are you assuming that?

I love white chocolate peppermint bark. One of my favorite deserts.

I'm not sure what you've described is toxic.

No, I only worry about things I have actual control over.

I'll vote AI-assisted, but regardless the writing is extremely poor.

Zero.

At one point I had 10 puppies.

No, we get the standard holidays.

Haven't actually seen soma post in years tho.

It's basically just helly and his hundreds of alts.

So, you decided to switch alts?

hockey7318 posted...

Did the minimum wage go way up finally?

Minimum wage here is currently $15.00. My bad, thought it was $18.75.

I live my life the way I want to, and I have zero regrets about it.
Once again, you're making gross assumptions about myself and other users (people you do not know in real life) on here. You will fit in nicely with everyone else who does the same exact thing.

These things still like 10 dollars a pound?

Amazon starts every worker at less than minimum wage? Yes that's pretty illegal.

NephalimTechno posted...

I make money just by being myself I get taken care of cause my personality

Lots of wrong assumptions made with this post. Your gimmick will fit in well here.

I make $80/hr sitting on my ass and yelling at people (bad habit I need to get control over) all day.

I got Dragoon as my 4th Job and I just got the Submarine. This run has been hilarious. Spent time farming Twin Lances and Ruby Rings. About to get the Chicken Knife. I hope that my 5th job is good enough to sub out Monk (please be a spellcaster) because Monk is an awful Job, and Thief is purely for Steal. Dragoon isn't going to do much unless my 4th job is Mystic Knight as well.

tldr: Ninja is carrying the hell out of this run.

Why?

https://gamefaqs.gamespot.com/a/forum/c/c9f39967.png
Currently farming Black Flames as they are easy gil and ABP in W1 and this run is at a point where the unfun levels are manageable. I'm jettisoning Monk as soon as I get my 5th job. Chakra is technically a heal, so I guess I might have to think about it. Maybe I'll get rid of Thief as it's pretty late by the time 5th job rolls around, and I should have plenty of good steals by then. Will probably grind until at least my 2 Ninjas have Throw so I can swap classes around so everyone has Throw until Earth Job, but I really should grind until everyone has Throw as throw is going to carry for a while.

Brave doesn't even have workspaces.

kind9 posted...

It's very good for downloading firefox. I haven't used it for anything else. I assume it's way better than IE.

Firefox is unusable these days because no Slack Huddles on Linux and huge issues with Teams.

Even has uBlock Origin on mobile. I am super impressed at how clean and feature full it is.