First of all I've come to terms with myself that I am a horrible person who will probably never accomplish anything significant in this lifetime, regardless of how long it may go on.
I don't do anything except further deprive the world of its resources and fill it up with **** (which hypocritically I spend most of my time complaining other useless people do) and I am so fully convinced of this that I can't muster up enough motivation/drive/whatever the hell you want to call it to get on my ass and actually do something productive/meaningful to my or anyone else's life.
It's gotten to the point where I think living takes too much of an effort and coincidentally, so does suicide (also I may be a little scared). I've gone through my 'life is unfair/sucks' teenage angst phase (maybe not?) but I honestly can't see how me still being alive will benefit anyone in anyway. It's pathetic.
But in the end, I'm still a goddamn, shameless attention whore so I wouldn't want to kill myself anyway. I used to want to but then people started talking about how suicide is selfish/attention-whoring and I thought "That's a good point." So my new sometimes wish is for someone else to kill me instead. It can even be an accident. And I don't think that can possibly be perceived as attention-whoring. Attention-whoring without being labeled as such is important to me.
This is **** I would usually write about in my journal since nobody gives a **** but something about the mood I'm in right now made me feel like posting this. Also I haven't written in that thing for about five months due to laziness.
And now I've even wasted your time. Please hate me.
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If you wake up at a different time, in a different place, could you wake up as a different person? [HERO'S PLUNGE] http://img.imgcake.com/finegifdy.gif
I never really got why that game is so great. It's fun at first but then it kinda gets tedious. I'm currently trying to beat the whole thing on my iPod.
From: blue_bomb | #005 Also find something to pass the time. Pick up a new hobby or something.
My life is nothing but hobbies now. It sucks.
From: Princess Anri | #010 It is...The Ultimate Suicide.
Long story short, you drown yourself in a bathtub full of cereal and get your friend to eat that cereal and then realize you're dead at the bottom.
Essentially, in your death, you own someone so hard that you will live forever.
Nobody would be crazy enough to eat an entire bathtub of Lucky Charms. That cereal is garbage. And not a big fan of drowning. I almost drowned when I was seven. Terrible experience.
From: XIII_rocks | #011 Well you do have an unhealthy preference for gen 1 and 2 Pokemon.
Well that is completely justifiable. They're just better. /nostalgia gogles