Current Events > Hey, how do I not feel empty inside?

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I'm laughing and socializing as prominently as ever, but as soon as I'm alone, I'm left with a creeping unease. It helps a little to distract myself by taking a bath or playing around on a piano, but I can't do that forever- and certainly not at work. Today I felt so strained that I cried my entire commute home, and when I got home, I continued to cry even though I didn't really feel the pain anymore. I was just weeping on autopilot.

How do you persevere through the day like that? There are chores and self-improvement I'd like to get to today, but I find I spend all of my time at home repairing my mood. I'm okay now, but how do I remain okay during the middle part of the day when I start to get stressed out but still need to work?
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I drink heavily. It's not great, but it's marginally better than the alternative.
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cobain27 posted...

I drink heavily. It's not great, but it's marginally better than the alternative.

Hmm, I don't drink or do drugs yet, so I guess that's an option...
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I'll let you know when I figure it out
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DezCaughtIt posted...

I'll let you know when I figure it out

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Buy crypto and watch it endlessly go up.

I wish I knew, I get that feeling too then I start thinking about all the awful things happening in the world and just stew in bitterness, hatred and violent and sad desires, the world is shit, life is shit, fuck everything, thoughts like that just start consuming my mind until I'm brought back to reality by the sound of the dark barking or the smell of it's recent load and the cycle continues.
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CiIantro posted...

Buy crypto and watch it endlessly go up.

I'm not motivated enough to do the amount of research it would take for me to feel comfortable in a crypto investment.
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Sorry man but I just started laughing thinking about you crying the whole drive home from work. I dunno it just struck me as hilarious.
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You can't . You know the truth . Nothing matters. Nothingness is the best feeling in the world. Don't afraid
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HashtagTartarus posted...

CiIantro posted...

Buy crypto and watch it endlessly go up.

I'm not motivated enough to do the amount of research it would take for me to feel comfortable in a crypto investment.

Just buy Ethereum then.

Sertraline, Paroxetine, Dapoxetine, Venlafaxine, Escitalopram...
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armandro posted...

You can't . You know the truth . Nothing matters. Nothingness is the best feeling in the world. Don't afraid

I've always felt like I matter a great deal! Maybe something in my life has challenged that perception, and I'm having greatness withdrawals.

JOSGABRIEL posted...

Sertraline, Paroxetine, Dapoxetine, Venlafaxine, Escitalopram...

Hey, I've heard of some of those! I used to take Escitalopram. I stopped taking my medication like four years ago because I didn't really notice a difference other than the side effects, but maybe it's time to see a psychiatrist.
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If you do feel like that, then yeah. Depression treatment is actually based on the user's response to medicine, so meds can variate between one client and another; besides, the effect takes a while before it can be fully observed, usually between 6-8 weeks; while full treatment is supposed to be continued for a year.

Good luck.
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Institute a radical change in your life. Go out and do something (legal) that you have never done before. Buying strawberry milk instead of chocolate doesn't count, it has to be grand. Something that will forever change your perception of the world.
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