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Lost_All_Senses
03/08/21 4:39:47 PM
#51:


Have you guys ever tried to live for others? When I wasn't feeling myself, it was my effort I'd put fourth in helping my family and what not that got me through it. However, my family is very vocal about appreciation and that was part of it. It's a lot harder if people feel entitled to your help. That makes you feel like you're not suppose to feel good about it, I imagine. You gotta create your own standards and realize you should feel like you did goid despite how others feel. That's the hard part.

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DDirtyDastard
03/08/21 4:39:53 PM
#52:


I realized I hated myself once I knew it was evil to be a cis-gendered heterosexual white male.
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Chewtarch
03/08/21 4:40:44 PM
#53:


DDirtyDastard posted...
I realized I hated myself once I knew it was evil to be a cis-gendered heterosexual white male.
TC can you take solace in the fact that you're not a baby whiner like some people?
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DarthAragorn
03/08/21 4:49:36 PM
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Lost_All_Senses posted...
Have you guys ever tried to live for others? When I wasn't feeling myself, it was my effort I'd put fourth in helping my family and what not that got me through it. However, my family is very vocal about appreciation and that was part of it. It's a lot harder if people feel entitled to your help. That makes you feel like you're not suppose to feel good about it, I imagine. You gotta create your own standards and realize you should feel like you did goid despite how others feel. That's the hard part.
I would but all I have is my family and theyve all turned into alt right fucksticks so I dont really give a fuck about them
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DDirtyDastard
03/08/21 4:51:13 PM
#55:


Chewtarch posted...
TC can you take solace in the fact that you're not a baby whiner like some people?
You're a racist. Fuck you.
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DarthAragorn
03/08/21 5:04:12 PM
#56:


Shut the fuck up
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Kami_no_Kami
03/08/21 5:06:11 PM
#57:


JBaLLEN66 posted...
like 20

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Lost_All_Senses
03/08/21 5:08:00 PM
#58:


DarthAragorn posted...
I would but all I have is my family and theyve all turned into alt right fucksticks so I dont really give a fuck about them

That's what I feared :(. I'm coming from a place of privilege in this area. It's much harder when you have to outsource for those who will appreciate your involvement. But there are groups/families out there who would take others into their circle if they show want to be a decent person. I hope you find the right community for you at some point and they show you your better qualities and help you make them flourish.

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DarthAragorn
03/08/21 5:27:37 PM
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Lost_All_Senses posted...
That's what I feared :(. I'm coming from a place of privilege in this area. It's much harder when you have to outsource for those who will appreciate your involvement. But there are groups/families out there who would take others into their circle if they show want to be a decent person. I hope you find the right community for you at some point and they show you your better qualities and help you make them flourish.
I havent had any luck finding that in the last 8 years
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DarthAragorn
03/08/21 6:34:51 PM
#60:


I dont think Ive felt this low in years
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ROOTFayth
03/08/21 6:36:13 PM
#61:


look at the bright side, you now have a purpose to improve yourself, lots of people dont have a purpose, when youre at the bottom you can only go up
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DarthAragorn
03/08/21 6:37:18 PM
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ROOTFayth posted...
look at the bright side, you now have a purpose to improve yourself, lots of people dont have a purpose, when youre at the bottom you can only go up
do I really though

my personality will still be trash and I will still have the severe social anxiety and shit

whats the point
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ROOTFayth
03/08/21 6:40:51 PM
#63:


the point is to no longer have a trash personality and improve social anxiety obviously, this way you can have more fun experiencing life mate, let's fucking goooooooooooo
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DarthAragorn
03/08/21 10:36:43 PM
#64:


I almost cried at work today so theres that
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ROOTFayth
03/08/21 10:42:42 PM
#65:


have you tried therapy?
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DarthAragorn
03/08/21 10:45:20 PM
#66:


ROOTFayth posted...
have you tried therapy?
Years ago, it didnt really help
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ROOTFayth
03/08/21 10:46:09 PM
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DarthAragorn posted...
Years ago, it didnt really help
get another therapist, find one thatll help
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MrMallard
03/08/21 10:51:20 PM
#69:


I think I found the words for depression and self-hate around 10 years old. It was before I left primary school, that's for sure.

I think I'm as chill as I am today because I don't want other people to go through what I went through. I want people to feel secure and loved, and I want to hopefully feel secure and loved back as well.

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DarthAragorn
03/09/21 3:52:27 PM
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ROOTFayth posted...
get another therapist, find one thatll help
I don't know how I can find the time to do that working Monday through Friday
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JBaLLEN66
03/09/21 3:53:42 PM
#71:


Pretty much every morning I'm reminded about it

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Eyeratosthenes
03/09/21 3:54:42 PM
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DarthAragorn posted...
I don't know how I can find the time to do that working Monday through Friday
plenty of therapists can accommodate weekends. my weekly slots have changed from friday evenings, to saturday afternoons, to thursday afternoons, and now to wednesday nights. a lot will also charge on a sliding scale

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DarthAragorn
03/09/21 5:46:15 PM
#73:


Eyeratosthenes posted...
plenty of therapists can accommodate weekends. my weekly slots have changed from friday evenings, to saturday afternoons, to thursday afternoons, and now to wednesday nights. a lot will also charge on a sliding scale
I might need to find one that offers it for almost free, Im fucking broke
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Southernfatman
03/09/21 5:49:05 PM
#74:


I always had depression and self esteem issues, but by my mid 20s it really set in. I realized my life won't get any better and I'm the biggest reason why.

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One_Day_Remains
03/09/21 5:51:49 PM
#75:


I think you just need encouragement and reassurance

But you also have to be open to receiving it as well
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RedJackson
03/09/21 5:55:25 PM
#76:


Never. I don't hate myself as much as I am over myself and my opinions - the external world has far better and more interesting things to say and show me

I have my whole life to get to me I guess >_>


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pure_temper
03/09/21 5:55:47 PM
#77:


Depressing and misanthropic views are from the devil

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RedJackson
03/09/21 5:56:46 PM
#78:


One_Day_Remains posted...
I think you just need encouragement and reassurance

But you also have to be open to receiving it as well

This. It's helpful to have friends that'll work you out of daily funks and if not - I can be your friend! :D

pure_temper posted...
Depressing and misanthropic views are from the devil

Ey man, we both know the devils work is garbage


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pure_temper
03/09/21 6:01:46 PM
#79:


RedJackson posted...
Ey man, we both know the devils work is garbage

indeed. Evil is so stupid.

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Dragon239
03/09/21 6:06:00 PM
#80:


hmm. 18, 19? continuously worse

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RedJackson
03/09/21 6:14:16 PM
#81:


pure_temper posted...
indeed. Evil is so stupid.

Youre a great dude with a great perspective on spirituality that I immensely respect man - conquer that mofo with the tools ya got, dont let those things win

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DarthAragorn
03/09/21 6:27:42 PM
#82:


One_Day_Remains posted...
I think you just need encouragement and reassurance

But you also have to be open to receiving it as well
Theres nothing good to encourage or reassure
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Background_Guy
03/09/21 6:28:32 PM
#83:


Middle school
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pure_temper
03/09/21 6:35:47 PM
#84:


RedJackson posted...
Youre a great dude with a great perspective on spirituality that I immensely respect man - conquer that mofo with the tools ya got, dont let those things win

i did not realize anyone was paying attention but i appreciate your very kind words and 100% believe them for you too my friend!!!!

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DarthAragorn
03/09/21 8:30:56 PM
#85:


Well at least I got hair growth shit today. So in 6 months to a year maybe I wont be bald as fuck at least, just still fat and ugly and no social skills
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DarthAragorn
03/09/21 10:41:31 PM
#86:


Can I live off just one meal a day

because this fatty has really gotta lose weight
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harley2280
03/09/21 10:45:48 PM
#87:


When I was like 9 and realized my parents just thought of me as a burden and had no interest in being parents so my siblings and grandparents had to do it.
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Chewtarch
03/09/21 10:47:56 PM
#88:


DarthAragorn posted...
Can I live off just one meal a day

because this fatty has really gotta lose weight
you absolutely can. it's how i lost 140 lbs my dude. even to this day i still tend to eat one meal a day. i have since learned it's an actual strat called intermittent fasting. i was just doing it out of piggishness lol. wanted to save all my calories for one meal so i could fool myself that i'm eating a lot

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ZeroX91
03/09/21 10:50:43 PM
#89:


When my left hand didnt cutit anymore

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evil_cricket
03/09/21 10:54:48 PM
#90:


Never hated myself. Had a bit of teen angst back in high school, but I figured some things out and eventually settled into who I am.

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Frizzurd
03/09/21 11:32:50 PM
#91:


since childhood, but lost all hope after college debt ruined me

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yutterh
03/09/21 11:33:25 PM
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Since birth

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DarthAragorn
03/10/21 7:37:06 PM
#93:


Frizzurd posted...
since childhood, but lost all hope after college debt ruined me
fuck

i fucking forgot about debt

welp
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ROOTFayth
03/10/21 7:42:19 PM
#94:


you're lucky though, inflation is rising so quickly that your debt will now be greatly devalued, rejoice!
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electricbugs2
03/10/21 7:45:43 PM
#95:


Yall are depressing as fuck.

Even with the pandemic life isnt that bad. Go out and smell the flowers, and if that doesnt work theres a pill to make your misery go away.

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The_Creep_2020
03/10/21 7:46:47 PM
#96:


Well, my first depressive episode was at about 15-16, so then.

These days Im content within myself, which is nice.

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Yadoken
03/10/21 7:48:46 PM
#97:


Since around 9 I guess is when I first had thoughts of not wanting to be "around".

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DarthAragorn
03/10/21 7:59:16 PM
#98:


electricbugs2 posted...
Yall are depressing as fuck.

Even with the pandemic life isnt that bad. Go out and smell the flowers, and if that doesnt work theres a pill to make your misery go away.
It is tho
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electricbugs2
03/10/21 8:00:51 PM
#99:


DarthAragorn posted...
It is tho
No not at all.

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Eyeratosthenes
03/10/21 8:03:43 PM
#100:


electricbugs2 posted...
Yall are depressing as fuck.

Even with the pandemic life isnt that bad. Go out and smell the flowers, and if that doesnt work theres a pill to make your misery go away.
The tone of this post seems snakelike. There's no need to handwave away serious issues like depression, self image, despair

You could have not said anything instead of taking a potshot at a dude down and out. Pretty low of you, man. And no one buys you were intending to give him advice, if that was going to be your rebuke.

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