Current Events > When did you realize you fucking hate yourself?

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I want to say at 19 or so for me

I wasnt happy in my teenage years but I didnt realize I was complete trash until college

A couple years ago, maybe like october/november of last year. I guess initially at like 22, then i didn't for like 3 years. Then I did again for like 5 years

I no longer hate myself though, and I'm confident the matter has finally been settled

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Like until i was 24.
Then i was like holy shit shut up im super cool and have been pretty good since

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I honestly can't say I ever hated myself, I have sometimes made mistake and been disappointed with myself but not to the point of hating myself

I dont think I remember what it felt like to not hate myself tbh

I don't hate myself, other people hate me.

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Probably when I was 11-12.

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Prolly early to mid twenties.

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you probably don't want to hear it and it's by no means your panacea but losing weight really helps a lot

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J03can posted...

Like until i was 24.
Then i was like holy shit shut up im super cool and have been pretty good since

hey me too.

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Never

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Eyeratosthenes posted...

you probably don't want to hear it and it's by no means your panacea but losing weight really helps a lot

It probably does

but losing weight is the opposite of my penis, long and hard. also as a side effect you live longer and that sounds fucking dreadful

Bout 10 years ago

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When my dad left I was 8 or 9.

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tomorrow

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DarthAragorn posted...

It probably does

but losing weight is the opposite of my penis, long and hard. also as a side effect you live longer and that sounds fucking dreadful

your dick will gain like at minimum another inch

for me it was more. but yes, it takes a long-ass time and is difficult. you'd basically feel starving all the time, no matter what. i was over 340lbs so all the mumbo jumbo shit ppl usually say to me doesn't apply it all. you can still always be hungry, always missing soda, always missing the foods/quantities you used to eat. it may not go away at all

but even being just "less fat" should start to make you feel better about yourself. not even fit, just less fat. it'll feed into itself and people other than you will notice. they will tell you they notice, and it will feel really good. then you'll wanna keep doing it. it will compound upon itself from there. right now you're not even the person you really are (i don't know how to make that sentence make sense). you're so weighed down by baggage like mental haze and self loathing there's no way the real you can get through all that. you feel like the "real you" right now I'm sure, but if you lose the weight and keep it off you'll most likely change completely.

you're not nearly as hopeless as some of the others here.

sorry, i know you didn't ask for advice or anything so feel free to tell me to fuck off if you want

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agreed with above, the fat acceptance movement is a fuckin plague and people should strive to be healthy so they can actually enjoy life, and by life I mean other things than eating junk food

Early twenties ish, around the time I quit university.

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WHY do you hate yourselves?

I don't really care enough about myself to hate me.

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Eyeratosthenes posted...

your dick will gain like at minimum another inch

for me it was more. but yes, it takes a long-ass time and is difficult. you'd basically feel starving all the time, no matter what. i was over 340lbs so all the mumbo jumbo shit ppl usually say to me doesn't apply it all. you can still always be hungry, always missing soda, always missing the foods/quantities you used to eat. it may not go away at all

but even being just "less fat" should start to make you feel better about yourself. not even fit, just less fat. it'll feed into itself and people other than you will notice. they will tell you they notice, and it will feel really good. then you'll wanna keep doing it. it will compound upon itself from there. right now you're not even the person you really are (i don't know how to make that sentence make sense). you're so weighed down by baggage like mental haze and self loathing there's no way the real you can get through all that. you feel like the "real you" right now I'm sure, but if you lose the weight and keep it off you'll most likely change completely.

you're not nearly as hopeless as some of the others here.

sorry, i know you didn't ask for advice or anything so feel free to tell me to fuck off if you want

I was, well, not in good shape but the closest to a healthy weight Ive been, my sophomore year of college and I still felt like shit to the point where I dropped out and lost all of my friends and ruined the rest of my life

so based off that the just lose weight and youll feel better advice just doesnt mean much to me, idk

13 or so, maybe earlier

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DarthAragorn posted...

I was, well, not in good shape but the closest to a healthy weight Ive been, my sophomore year of college and I still felt like shit to the point where I dropped out and lost all of my friends and ruined the rest of my life

so based off that the just lose weight and youll feel better advice just doesnt mean much to me, idk

I'm speaking with your job in mind. School in my experience was just everyone ignoring each other and moving on to the next class. no one paid attention to shit

it makes sense you would look for points contradictory to what i said - that's your brain attempting to sabotage you because it doesn't want to do the work/have the patience. it doesn't even want to start, because it knows starting is often the hardest part. override your brain dude. do it anyway

and you won't necessarily live longer lol. Just ask my lungs and liver

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I have never hated myself.

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When I found out some of my friends were talking shit behind my back. Most people hate me so I hate myself so I drink heavily.

16-17ish.
Basically for almost half my life :)

Smoking weed and drinking helps. Or not. Meh.

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Lmao

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for as long as i can remember. i only make mistakes

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jesus christ this is a sad topic, learn to love yourselves boys

Bestoffuture posted...

hey me too.

Nice work friend!
I hope the others in this topic realize this too

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ROOTFayth posted...

jesus christ this is a sad topic, learn to love yourselves boys

Theres nothing to love

DarthAragorn posted...

Theres nothing to love

you can just make something up there are no rules

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Eyeratosthenes posted...

you can just make something up there are no rules

Nobody has that good of an imagination

like 20

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Hating yourself is a time sink. Ain't nobody got time for that.

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then circle back to the lose weight thing, since that's something tangible you would love

that girl you had lunch with, don't you wanna hear her say "oooo DarthAragorn you lost more weight, you're making me jel with all your weight loss"

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trappedunderice posted...

When I found out some of my friends were talking shit behind my back. Most people hate me so I hate myself so I drink heavily.

This explains a lot
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Very early teenage years. Never went away, learned to cope with it.

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Sporadically since my teens.. But the last 4 or 5 years it's become a consistent deep self hatred burning within.

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Eyeratosthenes posted...

then circle back to the lose weight thing, since that's something tangible you would love

that girl you had lunch with, don't you wanna hear her say "oooo DarthAragorn you lost more weight, you're making me jel with all your weight loss"

This job is over next month so it wouldnt even be noticeable before then so who cares

what specifically do you guys hate about yourselves?

DarthAragorn posted...

This job is over next month so it wouldnt even be noticeable before then so who cares

It can absolutely be noticeable in a month, even if you're not very overweight. The number on the scale might not even change much but that doesn't mean you're not going down a pant size or two

god this is probably patronizing, i'm sorry. but you're very similar to where i was once at and i wish i could like, impart to you visions of how things would change. losing weight is like a cheat code man. you won't even be looking for romantic partners or hookups, or even attention from the opposite sex. but it'll happen dude

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ROOTFayth posted...

what specifically do you guys hate about yourselves?

The shorter answer would be what I dont hate about myself

and the answer to that is nothing, I legitimately cant think of any part of me I dont actively dislike

You hate yourself, but expect hot girls to like you.

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No_U_L7 posted...

This explains a lot

What do you mean cosmo?

benefit of finally having to use mobile gamefaqs instead of gameraven, theres no excuse not to block that fucking moron

trappedunderice posted...

What do you mean cosmo?

explains why you lash out so much. i hope things get better for you, tc and everyone else itt
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Before I was in school. I guess about 4, since I wouldn't remember much younger.