Current Events > I genuinely despise happy people.

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I think Im starting to realize Im a bad person. I genuinely get annoyed when other people are happy or having fun.

Its just hitting me. Huh.

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sounds like 90 percent of this board

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The antidote is rejoicing.

That is the antidote for jealousy.


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cuttin_in_farm posted...

I think Im starting to realize Im a bad person.

Be careful... This is a hazardous path.

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If you identified it, that's a good thing. As long as you don't feel hopeless that you can curve it. It will be a slow process, but you can definitely curve it over time if you don't keep leaning into it

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When Americans are happy and they know it, do they really clap their hands?

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I think one of the reasons I am annoyingly popular is that it's very easy for me to be happy for people, and express that. I don't know how some of y'all live.

Don't get me wrong, I like hurting feelings too, but you have to earn that.

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darkprince45 posted...

sounds like 90 percent of this board

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Well, recognizing that is the first step. Now it's time to correct it with professional help
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It was after a therapy session that it dawned on me.

Like, Im constantly pretending so that people think Im normal.

But I hate it when people are doing good or having a good time. Its not something Ive had ig.

I always try to play it off. But Im realizing that I am never actually happy for my friends. I just pretend to be because thats the right thing to do.

I dunno. This is a big deal for me.

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Where do you think it stems from?

Inadequacy? Jealousy? Wishing you yourself were happier and could experience the same joy? When you're depressed, do you feel like you're alone in that feeling?

Cause those are actually pretty understandable reasons. The important thing is that you recognize that this trait is problematic and you want to fix it, as opposed to embracing it like many people with similar feelings do.
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One_Day_Remains posted...

Where do you think it stems from?

Inadequacy? Jealousy? Wishing you yourself were happier and could experience the same joy? When you're depressed, do you feel like you're alone in that feeling?

I just find life a bit meaningless ig. I wish I was religious so that there could be a point.

But as it stands, Im just an envious person.

I tried very hard to follow the rules and be respectful. But it ultimately gets me a trivial life. Meanwhile people in power are selfish and those with opportunities waste it. I just get very deflated ig.

I wih I could be blissfully happy for folks ig.

Just another problem to fix. I just always saw myself as a good guy.

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Buddhist psychology might help.


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cuttin_in_farm posted...

Just another problem to fix. I just always saw myself as a good guy.

Do you care about being good? You have enough self-awareness to realize that you have some bad qualities, and it seems to bother you, so it seems like you care about being good, which is a pretty important part of being good.

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