Current Events > DarkRoast is a Mess 2: Femme Fatale

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SuccubusLilith posted...
No.

....thank you, I'm sorry. I'm trying to stop crying but these fucking hormones you know

I'm not a bad person and I was transgender for all my life, I look up to you and Sayoria a lot and shit I'm a disaster

I turned in my essay and my prof seemed pretty happy to write me a recommendation for my application to the program full-time, so that's good!

The bad part is that my girlfriend's health issues have flared up lately and she had to go to urgent care because she developed a UTI, likely due to an attack she had while on her period. She's really been struggling lately and I'm, of course, very worried about her. I constantly reassure her that I love her and I'm here for her.

DarkRoast posted...

....thank you, I'm sorry. I'm trying to stop crying but these fucking hormones you know

Estrogen is a hell of a drug. :( At times too much so even under normal circumstances. I can't even imagine what you're going through right now.

ElatedVenusaur posted...

I turned in my essay and my prof seemed pretty happy to write me a recommendation for my application to the program full-time, so that's good!

The bad part is that my girlfriend's health issues have flared up lately and she had to go to urgent care because she developed a UTI, likely due to an attack she had while on her period. She's really been struggling lately and I'm, of course, very worried about her. I constantly reassure her that I love her and I'm here for her.

Oh no! That's awful! She seems like an amazing person and I hope you and her can have a happy life together without all these bad things :)

gunplagirl posted...

Estrogen is a hell of a drug. :( At times too much so even under normal circumstances. I can't even imagine what you're going through right now.

Better because I have friends like you

DarkRoast posted...

Better because I have friends like you

If we ever talked off site I could detail the stuff I'm dealing with since I'd get nuked here. But I do think you mean well and are sweet.

gunplagirl posted...

If we ever talked off site I could detail the stuff I'm dealing with since I'd get nuked here. But I do think you mean well and are sweet.

If it helps we can be fucked up friends together T_T

DarkRoast posted...

If it helps we can be fucked up friends together T_T

But yeah. Currently hurting myself in several ways so I do need to probably nap some before work. Be sure to hydrate after all your crying. I hope you feel better and settle down soon, and that you don't keep having instances like this crying because of the pregnancy.

I think tc blocked me lol

gunplagirl posted...

But yeah. Currently hurting myself in several ways so I do need to probably nap some before work. Be sure to hydrate after all your crying. I hope you feel better and settle down soon, and that you don't keep having instances like this crying because of the pregnancy.

Thank you gpg I'm sorry I'm such a mess

tripleh213 posted...

I think tc blocked me lol

Nope

CyricZ posted...

No.

yes.

I'm gonna throw up, this was too much

SuccubusLilith posted...

yes.

Warned.

Sorry youre having another episode. It can take a few weeks if youre taking meds to have an effect.

I think youre pushing yourself too much and jumping straight in. Youre putting too much weight into whats male and whats female instead of whats you. You dont have to wear frilly things to be a girl. I wouldnt wear any of the stuff youve posted lol. But I also get that you want to explore what you like or dont like since you didnt get a chance to try different things before. But try to approach it as a fun way to explore your presences and try not to worry about fitting in if that makes sense

Cleo_II posted...

Sorry youre having another episode. It can take a few weeks if youre taking meds to have an effect.

I think youre pushing yourself too much and jumping straight in. Youre putting too much weight into whats male and whats female instead of whats you. You dont have to wear frilly things to be a girl. I wouldnt wear any of the stuff youve posted lol. But I also get that you want to explore what you like or dont like since you didnt get a chance to try different things before. But try to approach it as a fun way to explore your presences and try not to worry about fitting in if that makes sense

This is really great advice. I kind of just eased myself into it and slowly developed my sense of style over the course of the past 11 months, and it was a primarily self-directed process.

Cleo_II posted...

Sorry youre having another episode. It can take a few weeks if youre taking meds to have an effect.

I think youre pushing yourself too much and jumping straight in. Youre putting too much weight into whats male and whats female instead of whats you. You dont have to wear frilly things to be a girl. I wouldnt wear any of the stuff youve posted lol. But I also get that you want to explore what you like or dont like since you didnt get a chance to try different things before. But try to approach it as a fun way to explore your presences and try not to worry about fitting in if that makes sense

I'm ok now. And I was doing ok until they made that topic making fun of me and I just couldn't hold it together. Then I got gunplagirl mad and it all snowballed. And yes I know I'm forcing it too much... But this is a lot more confusing and complicated than you'd think.

I put on the really girly things because I figured they'd change me over faster, but that's pretty dumb in respect.

I do like wearing this pink nightie though:)

DarkRoast posted...

I'm ok now. And I was doing ok until they made that topic making fun of me and I just couldn't hold it together. Then I got gunplagirl mad and it all snowballed. And yes I know I'm forcing it too much... But this is a lot more confusing and complicated than you'd think.

I put on the really girly things because I figured they'd change me over faster, but that's pretty dumb in respect.

I do like wearing this pink nightie though:)

Ignore the jerks, worry about yourself and your own mental health.

Tune them out.

Im fine now, thanks. Its been a while since I had one of those meltys.

This is probably gonna feel like a weird and maybe inappropriate cut-in on my part (even though I've been active in some of your previous topics... This is... unrelated to all of it really)

Setting up the point, you have proven to be a gaming laptop enthusiast and your budget has been above mine lol :P but my (gaming) laptop has been fucking with me for some time now and I haven't been super vocal about it because I've done what I can to try and fix the issues I've been having (one of the fans gets super loud sometimes even though the temperature is not high, typically when the power cord is plugged in, but not always). I'm a self-diagnostic type, so I'm always looking to try every option solo before turning to anyone else, and many things I've tried have helped, but ultimately, the underlying issue is still present.

Tonight, I experienced something for the first time... Laptop got loud and annoying (it used to require a shutdown. Then I later realized it could chill the fuck out with some sleep time). This time, I changed some settings while it was still awake and the offending bullshit artist dickhead fan decided to shut up and quiet down again. I replicated this action multiple times since. I do think a fan repair/maintenance is necessary at some point, but the more I understand the issue, the less I worry, because ultimately, performance is not suffering, internal temps are not reaching danger zones, I'm not getting errors or issues. I think the problem is with the heat sensor for the one offending fan, and if keep heat properly monitored, I don't think it's at risk. I've modified settings to be lower than they could be. I have a good cooling stand.

Anyway, Apologies if this seems like any hijacking or taking away from your topic in any way. That was not my intention, and I only went here because I know you're a laptop enthusiast and know more than I do so this seems like a subject you'd be interested in :P so if anything, maybe laptop talk might provide a distraction? I dunno, but that's where my head was at when I decided to post about this here specifically.

Have you tried sending it through the washing machine and dryer

tc is having a melty right now

DarkRoast posted...

Have you tried sending it through the washing machine and dryer

I'm not gonna spend a bunch of quarters on that >:)

AlephZero posted...

tc is having a melty right now

Can you please leave me alone

Fuck hormones.

Was it Spirited Away that first had a praised Fox dub and later a bad Disney dub?

Spirited Away is great!

Foppe posted...

Was it Spirited Away that first had a praised Fox dub and later a bad Disney dub?

Totoro.

CyricZ posted...

Totoro.

So it was.

Still in her arms

We fell asleep on the couch

Today will be better

I don't want to get up. This is as close to heaven as it gets on Earth.

So lovely.

Still thinking about that "small chest" Google search lol. How is she thinner than me but has breasts twice as large?

Genetics.

Capitalism.

CyricZ posted...

Capitalism.

https://gamefaqs.gamespot.com/a/user_image/8/2/7/AAeEwGAAD8Zj.jpg

They might be bigger, but does she think that they are perfect?

I have the house to myself this week. I might shave this beard and dress up some. It's been awhile

Foppe posted...

They might be bigger, but does she think that they are perfect?

Trust me on this

They're flawless

DarkRoast posted...

Trust me on this

They're flawless

You think they are.
But does she think so?

Foppe posted...

You think they are.
But does she think so?

Lina: "Glorious Ethiopian master genes at work"

DarkRoast posted...

https://gamefaqs.gamespot.com/a/user_image/8/2/7/AAeEwGAAD8Zj.jpg

Paperback Paradise is doing the Lord's work. I've never laughed so hard at some dumb images. :)

DarkRoast posted...

Lina: "Glorious Ethiopian master genes at work"

Was gonna make a joke about how I need to see such perfection.
But there must be some part of her body that she is not perfectly happy with (even if you are)?

Foppe posted...

Was gonna make a joke about how I need to see such perfection.
But there must be some part of her body that she is not perfectly happy with (even if you are)?

Lina: "I have, like, negative ass. An anti-ass"

And what do you think of her anti-ass?

Mine's better ngl