Current Events > I did something out of paranoia and I'm not sure if I screwed up.

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I've been wanting to change therapist for weeks because I felt our sessions were more of an inquisition to see if I'm taking my meds than anything. She makes me feel like I'm doing something wrong and our sessions feel more like her tailgating me with her authority to see if I'll eventually speed over the limit. I always feel like I can't be myself and my actions are slowly mimicking this narrative of self fulfilling prophecy where I feel like I'm about to screw up.

Well today, I gathered the courage to ask for a change. When I was asked why from the managing senior, I got extremely anxious and I couldn't form a coherent thought process. I felt like my tone of voice was confrontational and it may have given the impression that I was just an a**hole; when in reality I was just flustered and acted that way out of self-preservation. Now I'm really paranoid that I made a fool out of myself by putting myself on the spotlight and I'll have even more eyes on me as a result. WTF DO I DO? I FEEL SO ANXIOUS RIGHT NOW.

Explain yourself to them and say something akin to
I was nervous before I have talked with her the therapist for a while but we arent on the same page thats all

Just need to say that you no longer feel like it is a good fit. Professionals understand that they could be great at what they do but some people don't fit right with some therapists. It's normal and happens all the time. They really don't need a reason beyond that.