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SSBBSB
06/15/18 12:34:35 PM
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I'm in no condition to work on my videos. Besides, nobody watches them anyway...

The inner demons are creeping over me. I'm tired of being in love with only my work. At the end of the day, I just want to feel worth a nickel. I want to be able to end the day in a truly comforting manner.

Overworking myself, then lurking CE is all I have. I bury my emptiness under hours-per-day of work.
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PiOverlord
06/15/18 12:38:46 PM
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Do you post your videos here?
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ImTheMacheteGuy
06/15/18 12:41:03 PM
#4:


Nickle
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SSBBSB
06/15/18 12:41:03 PM
#5:


PiOverlord posted...
Do you post your videos here?

YouTube

KingDogbertXIV
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SSBBSB
06/15/18 12:41:32 PM
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ImTheMacheteGuy posted...
Nickle

Whatever
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DragonGirlYuki
06/15/18 12:42:29 PM
#7:


Post in political topics more then?
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SSBBSB
06/15/18 12:43:24 PM
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DragonGirlYuki posted...
Post in political topics more then?

I know little of politics.
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teepan95
06/15/18 12:43:58 PM
#9:


Invest in a hobby
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SSBBSB
06/15/18 12:45:15 PM
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teepan95 posted...
Invest in a hobby

Videos are my hobby.
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DragonGirlYuki
06/15/18 12:46:42 PM
#11:


You don't lurk in the political topics?
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WhatHappened
06/15/18 12:47:27 PM
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Lost_All_Senses
06/15/18 12:47:47 PM
#13:


SSBBSB posted...
I want to be able to end the day in a truly comforting manner.


I personally use reefers for that
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SSBBSB
06/15/18 12:48:06 PM
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DragonGirlYuki posted...
You don't lurk in the political topics?

It's just mud-flinging.
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Lost_All_Senses
06/15/18 12:48:24 PM
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WhatHappened posted...
Get a Boyfriend.


He's not gay yo
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SSBBSB
06/15/18 12:50:44 PM
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WhatHappened posted...
Get a Boyfriend.

1. I'm straight.
2. I'm profoundly disabled.
3. I'm too limited.
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DragonGirlYuki
06/15/18 12:51:25 PM
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How about the drama topics?
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teepan95
06/15/18 12:53:01 PM
#18:


You need something to do for when you're burnt out, man
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SSBBSB
06/15/18 12:54:23 PM
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DragonGirlYuki posted...
How about the drama topics?

Cartridge88 is the only reason I haven't closed this account.

He doesn't do Skype or Discord.
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Malcrasternus
06/15/18 12:54:41 PM
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Aw.
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DragonGirlYuki
06/15/18 12:54:51 PM
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I don't know that person. You have many alts?
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CharlesBronson
06/15/18 12:55:30 PM
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maybe people would watch your videos if they had commentary
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SSBBSB
06/15/18 12:55:46 PM
#23:


teepan95 posted...
You need something to do for when you're burnt out, man

Even "for-fun" games become work.
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Ghirahim
06/15/18 12:56:42 PM
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SSBBSB posted...
It's just mud-flinging.

but mud-flinging it fun
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SSBBSB
06/15/18 12:57:36 PM
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Malcrasternus posted...
Aw.

You semi-have Skype.

Sort of.

CharlesBronson posted...
maybe people would watch your videos if they had commentary

My voice is very weak.
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SSBBSB
06/15/18 12:58:21 PM
#26:


DragonGirlYuki posted...
You have many alts?

Too many.
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Lost_All_Senses
06/15/18 12:59:07 PM
#27:


SSBBSB posted...
teepan95 posted...
You need something to do for when you're burnt out, man

Even "for-fun" games become work.


Im there too. Im disabled but not to your extent. I know how big losing interest in games is when you're home bound a lot. I haven't found the healthy remedy yet either man. I found some very unhealthy ones that just lead to a deeper hole. Somehow still manage to avoid deep depression tho. My depression is pretty contained. I tucked that shit down deep after facing it.
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DragonGirlYuki
06/15/18 12:59:08 PM
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Hi Hoth.
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Malcrasternus
06/15/18 12:59:57 PM
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SSBBSB posted...
You semi-have Skype.

Sort of.

I'm on skype the moment my computer at home is turned on.
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SSBBSB
06/15/18 1:02:58 PM
#30:


DragonGirlYuki posted...
Hi Hoth.

He ain't here.

Lost_All_Senses posted...
Im there too. Im disabled but not to your extent. I know how big losing interest in games is when you're home bound a lot. I haven't found the healthy remedy yet either man. I found some very unhealthy ones that just lead to a deeper hole. Somehow still manage to avoid deep depression tho. My depression is pretty contained. I tucked that s*** down deep after facing it.

Right now, I feel only emptiness. How do you cope?
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SSBBSB
06/15/18 1:03:45 PM
#31:


Malcrasternus posted...

I'm on skype the moment my computer at home is turned on.

Oh...
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SSBBSB
06/15/18 1:05:49 PM
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I only check the actual Skype thing rarely.
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frozenshock
06/15/18 1:06:40 PM
#33:


Hang in there dude.
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PiOverlord
06/15/18 1:09:24 PM
#34:


SSBBSB posted...
Malcrasternus posted...
Aw.

You semi-have Skype.

Sort of.

CharlesBronson posted...
maybe people would watch your videos if they had commentary

My voice is very weak.

Everyone hates their own voice, myself included. I have heard all sorts of ranges on youtube though, even those slightly like mine, and I am able to adapt to them all. If the person is not annoying, or a jerk, or whatever, people will look past their flaws as a whole because it is easy to see when someone is passionate about what they do.

Send us a voice clip. Say a good-length paragraph. I guarantee your voice isn't that weak.
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Unknown5uspect
06/15/18 1:10:28 PM
#35:


Does it really help? Cause I've tried nothing and I'm all out of ideas.
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DragonGirlYuki
06/15/18 1:10:43 PM
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You said you have a lot of alts though.
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Lost_All_Senses
06/15/18 1:11:06 PM
#37:


SSBBSB posted...
Right now, I feel only emptiness. How do you cope?


Honestly I think I just started to think of life as not so serious and I just focus on making everyone around me happier through humor. I also feel good about myself by trying to motivate others to not fall into the holes I have. I mean everyone has to find what works for them. Every mind is unique and what works for me might not mean shit to the next man.

I think the big thing for me was not beating myself up anymore for not being good at everything...or anything for that matter lol. I just decided Im happy with the person I am. Im nice, I try to help when Im able (its also ok to be selfish sometimes) andIm good at making people laugh. It took a huge weight off me when I realized I don't have to try so hard. The person I am is good enough. And tbh when I don't try Im way better at all those things cause Im not stressed out.

Edit: Id be lying to say I don't have an empty feeling tho. That emptiness is a lack of hobbies and a significant other.
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SSBBSB
06/15/18 1:31:57 PM
#38:


frozenshock posted...
Hang in there dude.

I have no alternatives.

PiOverlord posted...

Send us a voice clip. Say a good-length paragraph. I guarantee your voice isn't that weak.

I'm disabled. I can barely whisper.

Unknown5uspect posted...
Does it really help? Cause I've tried nothing and I'm all out of ideas.

No.

I want to teach. I settle for making videos.

DragonGirlYuki posted...
You said you have a lot of alts though.

Is my usermap relevant to my core issue of not liking myself?
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ImTheMacheteGuy
06/15/18 1:35:56 PM
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Are your videos game videos? Like playthroughs? I like to watch those and and actually prefer no commentary tbh
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SSBBSB
06/15/18 1:38:43 PM
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ImTheMacheteGuy posted...
Are your videos game videos? Like playthroughs? I like to watch those and and actually prefer no commentary tbh

Yup.

I use captions.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-qHUNiXG0Mk" data-time="

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Lost_All_Senses
06/15/18 1:40:55 PM
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SSBBSB posted...
ImTheMacheteGuy posted...
Are your videos game videos? Like playthroughs? I like to watch those and and actually prefer no commentary tbh

Yup.

I use captions.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-qHUNiXG0Mk" data-time="


The use of captions actually adds a uniqueness imo.
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LordRazziel
06/15/18 1:41:37 PM
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How are you profoundly disabled?
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SSBBSB
06/15/18 1:42:30 PM
#43:


Lost_All_Senses posted...

The use of captions actually adds a uniqueness imo.

Thanks.

I learned Adobe Premiere on the fly.
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Unknown5uspect
06/15/18 1:43:45 PM
#44:


SSBBSB posted...
No.

I want to teach. I settle for making videos.

I meant the talking part. I've just been coping with drugs and alcohol for years until the depression goes away for a while. Only for it to keep coming back and punching me in the gut.
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SSBBSB
06/15/18 1:44:18 PM
#45:


LordRazziel posted...
How are you profoundly disabled?

I have VERY weak voluntary muscles.

I can't even lift my elbows.
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SSBBSB
06/15/18 1:48:33 PM
#46:


Unknown5uspect posted...
the talking part.

Is beyond me until the folks at that big pharmaceutical company or the FDA deems the "treatment" safe enough for market
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LordRazziel
06/15/18 1:51:20 PM
#47:


SSBBSB posted...
LordRazziel posted...
How are you profoundly disabled?

I have VERY weak voluntary muscles.

I can't even lift my elbows.

Gotcha.
Part of me thought you were going for the social anxiety/autism angle. I was gonna say your ability to communicate shows you are not, in fact, profoundly disabled. Edit: in that way

Are there support groups in your area? Maybe ask your doctor if he knows of any. Sounds like that could be highly beneficial.
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Lost_All_Senses
06/15/18 1:53:19 PM
#48:


LordRazziel posted...
Gotcha.
Part of me thought you were going for the social anxiety/autism angle. I was gonna say your ability to communicate shows you are not, in fact, profoundly disabled.


Ruuude
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SSBBSB
06/15/18 1:54:45 PM
#49:


LordRazziel posted...

Are there support groups in your area?

I'm the second-oldest person alive with my condition.

Most are dead infants.
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SSBBSB
06/15/18 1:56:59 PM
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Lost_All_Senses posted...

Ruuude

In his/her defense, I am...different.
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LordRazziel
06/15/18 1:59:21 PM
#51:


SSBBSB posted...
LordRazziel posted...

Are there support groups in your area?

I'm the second-oldest person alive with my condition.

Most are dead infants.

Doesn't have to be for your condition, specifically. Could just be one where you can talk with people that understand the limitations and affects on your life.
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