Poll of the Day > This is a sad topic for sad people

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https://youtu.be/-RXHa3cUT6E?si=YfenKT8UjxGLA5ck

Instead of funny memes, please post sad things instead.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0WglfhdK3tk

https://youtu.be/1vweXg4Q_GQ

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rlura6D_9qs
This song is goddamned gut punch. I want to be....happy. I'm ready

Im having a panic attack and a leg cramps at the same time, they're painfully canceling each other out

I used to think Homeward Bound was called "Homer Bond"

slacker03150 posted...

sad things

I used to live with an abusive family in Hawaii. It all started with my narcissist of a cousin, who I've been told I bear a great resemblance to. Whenever he looked at me, he thought he saw himself. He stalked me a lot. He projected his flaws onto me, and claimed that he did everything I did. He felt like everything bad he did was cancelled by everything good I did. I was in danger from him, needless to say. My mother tried to send me off somewhere where I wouldn't be in danger all the time. But my father sort of sabotaged her attempts a lot, since he was a pedophile intent on wooing me. It was hard to get away. Things were complicated by the fact that I had only one exit point, and there were always relatives and puppets at the airport ready to catch me if I ever got away. Things were complicated by the fact that some of those relatives had been driven crazy by the cousin so much, that they began to hallucinate whenever they saw me; they started to see my cousin instead of me, and punished me for everything my cousin had done to them. He then callously showed up and jeered at them. There were attempts to make sure the cousin didn't do any more harm, but he forced me into playing whipping boy for him. I wasn't really allowed to have a normal life. Hawaii was my hell. I was stuck there for many years. Eventually, I just forgot about my trauma. Eventually, I just forgot that I wanted to run away. I was threatened to keep silent and forget; I was encouraged to forget the bad stuff that had happened to me; I was told that it was all a dream. A lot of my family members were afraid that I'd hit them out of revenge; they'd hit me out of 'self-defense'. All I wanted to do was to get away. I had become too afraid to voice my thoughts. I had become too afraid to acknowledge my own emotions let alone voice them aloud. Eventually I just learnt to suppress it all. I gave up. It was... hard. I didn't know who to trust; there wasn't any telling who was working for them. I couldn't really confide in anyone anymore. Outsiders scolded the family I lived with for treating me poorly; I had to defend them, or they'd hit me. I had to lie through my teeth a lot in order to keep myself safe. 'Lie or die, I guess', I'd chuckle nervously to anyone who'd ask about why I lied so often. The narcissistic cousin was always following me. I was threatened on a regular basis. Even now, I am afraid that I was hurt; I don't have the scars to prove it, but I'm still afraid it happened. I can't really trust families anymore; I learnt to balk at them, to dismiss them as an excuse for people to do whatever the hell they want to do without any consequences whatsoever. I came to believe that the truth is overrated, and that people generally just want to hear the lies they make up all the time. I came to hate people in general, and moreso if they preached about the concept of 'family'; I balk every time someone starts talking about how valuable it is. It was hard for me to care about friendship and the like, never having the privelege of enjoying it. It's hard giving a damn about people talking so casually about their childhoods, when mine wasn't really all that great, to say the least. The worst part is, I can't even remember if any of this happened or not. My memory's so screwed-up that I can't tell what happened, what didn't happen, and what my fear and anxiety have exaggerated. I'm afraid of talking about what I remember, because I'm afraid that people will have sympathized with me because of something that never even happened.

Should I post the scene from Volcano? Nah

Bambis mom getting shot, Baloo dying and Mufasa falling to his death.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-5px3E5FwLw

Sometimes I think that the only reason people are impressed when I accomplish things is because I've already set the bar so low. I hate the country I live in. I'm unfulfilled and unaccomplished. Every time I try something, I fail. I'm a failure to launch and I know it. The world was not made for me. I have the ability to be good, but I'm robbed of it. Not a week goes by where I don't want to just scream at the sky and rip out my own hair. At this point I can't even see a life for myself where I am successful and happy.

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=SSaybIVwVCA&pp=ygUXQmFja3lhcmQgYmFiaWVzIGFiYW5kb24%3D

Im not sad, Im highly irritated

https://youtu.be/vuHn4KtlvYc

Flappers posted...

Sometimes I think that the only reason people are impressed when I accomplish things is because I've already set the bar so low. I hate the country I live in. I'm unfulfilled and unaccomplished. Every time I try something, I fail. I'm a failure to launch and I know it. The world was not made for me. I have the ability to be good, but I'm robbed of it. Not a week goes by where I don't want to just scream at the sky and rip out my own hair. At this point I can't even see a life for myself where I am successful and happy.

Try living in another one?

Glob posted...

Try living in another one?

If only it was that simple.

Flappers posted...

If only it was that simple.

Why isnt it?

Glob posted...

Why isnt it?

Immigration is hard and often expensive. You may lose your support system. And many countries will bar you from even trying if you are physically disabled, neurodivergent, or have a documented mental illness such as depression.

Glob posted...

Why isnt it?

Just pack up and move to another country. Find employment, a place to stay, deal with immigration policies if they'll even allow you in the country, possibly a huge cultural and language learning curve that will leave you psychologically and emotionally exhausted.

You really don't see how this might have difficulties? Like, dude, I know you've done it, but you've probably had a lot more privileges than you're letting on.

slacker03150 posted...

Immigration is hard and often expensive. You may lose your support system. And many countries will bar you from even trying if you are physically disabled, neurodivergent, or have a documented mental illness such as depression.

Immigration can be both hard and expensive, though it doesnt necessarily have to be. There are a number of things that can make it difficult, which is why I asked why it was difficult for that user.

Salrite posted...

Just pack up and move to another country. Find employment, a place to stay, deal with immigration policies if they'll even allow you in the country, possibly a huge cultural and language learning curve that will leave you psychologically and emotionally exhausted.

You really don't see how this might have difficulties? Like, dude, I know you've done it, but you've probably had a lot more privileges than you're letting on.

What privileges do you think Ive had? Ill be very open if you ask about them.

I have the privileges of being a white male from a Western country, but not much else as far as I can tell.

As for the language and culture learning curve, its invigorating, not exhausting. Oh, and finding a job before you go can take care of all the other stuff.

Glob posted...

What privileges do you think Ive had? Ill be very open if you ask about them.

I'm sure you had a base set of funds to get you started. And like you said, a job already lined up before moving. Not everyone can just "find a job" in a foreign country at will. I'm pretty sure you weren't exactly a refugee.

Not saying it isn't impossible, but you're talking like anyone can just up and move on a whim anywhere in the world.

Salrite posted...

I'm sure you had a base set of funds to get you started. And like you said, a job already lined up before moving. Not everyone can just "find a job" in a foreign country at will. I'm pretty sure you weren't exactly a refugee.

Not saying it isn't impossible, but you're talking like anyone can just up and move on a whim anywhere in the world.

I never claimed to be a refugee and I have acknowledged that there are things that can make it incredibly difficult for some people. Im not acting at all like anybody can just do it. I asked what the barrier for an individual person was.

As for funds, it didnt cost me a penny. Everything was paid for by my employer.