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Ugh I hated those episodes. Do they hit you more in the evening generally? Thats when I would usually get them. Are you ok now?

DarkRoast posted...

Yeah I'm fine, this method actually works

Cool ^_^

Ugh, that sounds terrifying. I'm glad you're feeling better.

That policy term paper I was sweating about? Uncertain about? The one I wrote on trans rights and worried that maybe my passions bled too strongly into it?

Yeah, this bitch aced it into the dirt! A+!
I'm actually going to miss this class. The professor can be kind of ranty, but he's smart, kept it interesting, and I hope to keep in touch with the three classmates.

And I hope to be doing this full time this time next year. Certainly acing this course has got to be a strong argument in my favor, right?

Today is definitely going to be a guy day for me. I'm back, my dudes.

DarkRoast posted...

Today is definitely going to be a guy day for me. I'm back, my dudes.

Youre better at being a guy than most. And also better at being a lady than most, believe it or not. You should be proud of that.

ElatedVenusaur posted...

Youre better at being a guy than most. And also better at being a lady than most, believe it or not. You should be proud of that.

You gotta have balls to not have balls

You gotta go balls out even if you have no balls to go out.

Ahhhh the sweet sweet comforts of my OG gender

Portal RTX is cool as shit but boy does it wreck my laptop

DarkRoast posted...

Ahhhh the sweet sweet comforts of my OG gender

OG (Original Guy) gender

That fits so well as a acronym.

Ooh, my girlfriend just went wild touching my hair and raving about how silky it is and then massaged some moisturizer into my hands and wrists and oh my Godddd, I love it when she takes care of me.

I gave her my old fleece and shes worn it the entire time

ElatedVenusaur posted...

Ooh, my girlfriend just went wild touching my hair and raving about how silky it is and then massaged some moisturizer into my hands and wrists and oh my Godddd, I love it when she takes care of me.

I gave her my old fleece and shes worn it the entire time

Time for sexytimes

So I started spotting a tiny bit and I got one of the inpatient OB/GYNs to check. Says I'm fine. Cervix fully closed and no evidence of effacement or bleeding. Still scared the crap out of me @Cleo_II

DarkRoast posted...

Time for sexytimes

She doesnt seem interested in that kind of thing: maybe because shes always in pain. Everything in our relationship is slow and gradual though. Its not like we get a ton of alone time.

Did you have a recent ultrasound or check up that might have caused it? I know that I bled every check up and then every time I had sex with my husband. It got to the point that we stopped halfway through my pregnancy because it scared us every time.

Cleo_II posted...

Did you have a recent ultrasound or check up that might have caused it? I know that I bled every check up and then every time I had sex with my husband. It got to the point that we stopped halfway through my pregnancy because it scared us every time.

Yes I had sex with Lina yesterday, won't go into details but I think that's a good sign that I probably shouldn't do it again until after delivery.

DarkRoast posted...

Yes I had sex with Lina yesterday, won't go into details but I think that's a good sign that I probably shouldn't do it again until after delivery.

Thats probably what it is then. At the end I was super horny all the time and he would refuse to have sex with me because the bleeding after scared him. Its supposedly fine but its scary to see.

Cleo_II posted...

Thats probably what it is then. At the end I was super horny all the time and he would refuse to have sex with me because the bleeding after scared him. Its supposedly fine but its scary to see.

Omg so it's not just me? Pregnancy jacked up my libido hardcore.

Yeah its all that blood flow I just wanted sex alllll the time Id get so mad at him for saying no even if it was absolutely appropriate lol

Lina is pretty rough. I don't think it's wise to do anything until after delivery. Also don't want to stimulate contractions or anything.

Probably should talk about something I remember from elementary school.

Welltoday has been super interesting. Ill have to tell all of you about it later. Great day!

Oh my gosh Lina is taking me out on a date tonight. It's kind of fun having her open doors for me, help me in the car, etc. Makes me feel special.

Not sure I'm a fan of this overly feminine maternity dress she got me, but I guess I can't really fit into many of the other dresses now. Pretty much all maternity clothes are super duper feminine. Which I'm okay with, but it's still kind of makes me uncomfortable.

Oh my gosh, she's so much better looking than me. Her dress hangs so perfectly on her body, it's crazy. The way she can just show a faint amount of cleavage while still looking modest while still looking super sexy, what the hell?

The one downside of me transitioning to female is that now I can be jealous of her. Because hot damn she is sexy. Her skin, that beautiful Ethiopian light brown cream skin, I would kill to have skin like that.

Hell, I would kill just to have more Asian skin than I have. I don't know how I managed to turn out so pasty white despite being 50% Chinese.

Yes I'm being a little gay right now, you guys are going to have to deal with that.

DarkRoast posted...

Not sure I'm a fan of this overly feminine maternity dress she got me, but I guess I can't really fit into many of the other dresses now. Pretty much all maternity clothes are super duper feminine. Which I'm okay with, but it's still kind of makes me uncomfortable.

Masculine "maternity clothes" would just end up looking like Jake Blues.
https://gamefaqs.gamespot.com/a/user_image/3/1/1/AAEhCpAAD-Of.jpg

Ok, so wow. Yeah. Just got home. Hadn't seen her in over a month - first I was sick, then I was around sick people, then she was sick...it was a fucking mess. I gave her my old fleece first thing and she literally wore it the entire time. She seems to really love it!

And we had a great time. She was all worried about telling me she's dating this dude*, which was funny because I know she's poly and I totally picked up on it just from how she talked about him*, so that wasn't a thing and she was relieved and started talking a bit about how strongly she feels for me and I threw out the hypothetical of me having sex with my hot classmate and she goes, "Oh EV, I would need to know the deets" and I joked about the questions she would ask, in her serious inquisitive way ("Was she good, EV? Like, what kinds of things did you do?"). She went on to tell me that she very much views me as her primary, that she's never had such a deep relationship with someone (same).

Anyway, we get back, she gets a package out of the mail, and it's a feminine care product (moisturizer for down below) and at first she wasn't sure I wanted to hear about it, but that kind of thing never bothered me, so she told me about the blood blister that spurred her to get the stuff.

Then things got spicy. She was talking about the new panties she got and said she was wondering if maybe I would like some for myself, so she just pulled her pants down and showed me the panties she was wearing - they were indeed a very nice shade of blue. I, uhh, also noticed other things that were very nice, of course. Then she was wondering about my panties, so I returned the favor.

Then I showed her my bra (a rather nice bra) and she came over to feel the texture and totes copped a feel LOL, not that I minded.

And then she showed me her bra.

And then she popped a boob out to show me: a nice fat one (surprisingly so - she's a skinny little thing). So, naturally, I did the same. She's the first person to ever see even just one, other than me.

She wouldn't shut up about it for, like...10-15 minutes afterwards LOL. "Oh my Gawd, you, have, like, perfect tits EV!"

Then she told me about the old refurbished MacBook the boy gave her, and how she can't wait to show me pics of how big her ass used to be (it's still anomalously big).
Then she made me an egg sandwich for dinner, and it was really good. We hung out talking for another few hours.

Good for you, girl!

DarkRoast posted...

Good for you, girl!

I'm still, like...wow. No one has ever shown me their breast before. That's a little further than even what we saw when we wore our swimsuits together. She's excited my class is over, because we really got into the routine of me heading over after therapy.

She also told me her daughter loves me and asks about me (she's staying with her dad ATM). I plan on taking her to my local Asian supermarket as her Christmas present (I'll spot her, like, $20-25) it's a seriously fuck off huge one too, with a lot of great stuff. Give me recs on specific stuff to look for, I have already accepted durian into my heart because she was really excited the time I brought over snacks from there and talked about how her dad used to take her to one by his old house. She's unusually adventurous food-wise for a tween, and mostly insists on making her own food, even though my girlfriend loves cooking for others.

Very proud of you girl. You're worth it!

"if i was gay, I'd have a boyfriend by now"
-what I've told my mom for upwards of three decades.

Beans gets to be great at two genders, I've been incompetent at any.

Questionmarktarius posted...

"if i was gay, I'd have a boyfriend by now"
-what I've told my mom for upwards of three decades.

Beans gets to be great at two genders, I've been incompetent at any.

Don't worry, I'm pretty crap at both. But I'm okay at being myself I guess.

Also it took a lot of work to get me out of bed today.

I cant do this today.

Im so fucking mentally tired. I need psych help or something.

Nothing like starting the work day crying in a fetal position in the charting room.

Thanks for trying to cheer me up, GPG. I dont know if I can do this anymore.

DarkRoast posted...

Nothing like starting the work day crying in a fetal position in the charting room.

Thanks for trying to cheer me up, GPG. I dont know if I can do this anymore.

*hugs* try and hold on as best you can. How are your mental health resources and have you ever had medication for depression and anxiety in the past?

gunplagirl posted...

*hugs* try and hold on as best you can. How are your mental health resources and have you ever had medication for depression and anxiety in the past?

I cant take my previous antidepressants because Im pregnant. I was on Wellbutrin and Prozac.

I need help but every time I reach out to co workers and other things, nobody cares. Im worried about my mental health deteriorating as the hospital census starts to skyrocket.

Cleo is right this is hurting my baby. Ive got to do something.

EDIT: Scheduler says I cant take today off because theres no backup on-call.

Worth talking to the scheduler about time off or general workload out of concern for your pregnancy. Its classed as discrimination and disability to overwork pregnant employees and most companies wont risk any issues since thats a hefty lawsuit.

Not saying to threaten legal action, mind you, but the torpedo can be under the surface for them to connect the dots themselves.

Doctors are excluded from many of those laws

DarkRoast posted...

Doctors are excluded from many of those laws

=(

Why?

DarkRoast posted...

Doctors are excluded from many of those laws

Of course they are!

God this country is fucking trash.

Kamen_Rider_Blade posted...

=(

Why?

Patient safety comes before physician safety

DarkRoast posted...

Patient safety comes before physician safety

Even though they're connected, LOL.

ElatedVenusaur posted...

Even though they're connected, LOL.

If I leave the hospital and theres nobody to see the patients, people could be hurt or even die.

DarkRoast posted...

If I leave the hospital and theres nobody to see the patients, people could be hurt or even die.

Do you know who wrote the original rules/regulations?

It's been this way forever, just how it is

It is called public danger, and it is a worldwide thing.

Wow, today was one hot piece of shit for ol' Amber here.

The title of this topic sent me a drama topic about yourself

This is random, but as a doctor, do you have any advice for this guy?

https://gamefaqs.gamespot.com/boards/400-current-events/80271357#10

DarkRoast posted...

Wow, today was one hot piece of shit for ol' Amber here.

/hugs